Realized  

angeldevillvr 54F
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3/2/2006 10:04 pm

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3/5/2006 9:18 pm

Realized


I finally realized tonight while chatting with a friend that I am still in love with a guy that I have dated off and on for the past 4 years or so. We have both had othe rpeople in our lives in between but we always come back to each other. I love him with all my heart but he has been hurt so much that he is afraid to commit to a relationship and I dont think I can have just a sexual relationship with this man. I want to show him how good real love can be. What it is liek to be loved and cared for., I want to shower him with attention and let him do the same to me.

When we are together life is wodnerful. Its not even that we are touching each other its just being in the same room, without look distance and can look each other in the eye and know that we enjoy each other. I really think he might have feelings but because of two failed marriages and a few failed relationships he is afraid to commit to another woman. By all of this he is missing out on a very good hearted caring loving woman that wants to show him all that I can.

Well maybe before it is too late he will wake up and decide that he wants to give us a real chance. But I have learned not to count my chickens and to not hold my breath while waiting on a man.

I do luv him but I cant wait on him forever to decide it is ok to love me. So I am gonna try to move on and find a man that wants to be loved as I love him and hope I can stop loving him/

SaintorSinner30 43F

3/3/2006 12:20 pm

I saw my ex fiancee for the first time in over three years last weekend, yes I still love him, even after all the bad times we had I can still say that. If it is meant to be it will happen sweetie, don't give up hope that there is no man out there who wants you. There is and when you finally find each other you will know it has been worth the wait all this time.

SaintorSinner


angeldevillvr 54F

3/3/2006 8:21 pm

Well I know nothign will ever come of this and Im not gonna think that it will. I just havent decided if I want to keep looking to see if someone can replace him or not. I think I would much rather just padlock my heart shut and throw away the key.


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