It's OFFICIAL!!  

alone2long2005 48M
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9/6/2006 7:11 pm

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9/20/2006 5:23 am

It's OFFICIAL!!

As of 5:45 am yesterday, my baby girl is officially grown-up. I am now legally the father of another adult. Not sure how I feel about that. Of course, she's still in school and then there's college after that (unless she pulls a bone-headed move like her father did way back in the day), so the 'dad' part isn't really over.
But it is a whole new chapter in my life. Where do I go from here? What's my purpose now? I know I'm young to be an empty-nester, with a lot of life left to live, but to tell the truth, I don't have the slightest fucking idea what to do with it. I can't retire; I need the income. The opportunity to travel more is going to be there, but I'm not so sure the money will be. Maybe I don't want to live in central IL anymore. Maybe I want to go someplace warmer, where the seasons don't change... or at least, don't change as much.
For those of you who may be wondering, the quitting smoking thing isn't going as well as one would hope. My enthusiasm for the non-smoking lifestyle has wained considerably since last we met. What do you non-smokers do when you get pissed off? As a smoker, I can go outside, light up, and take angry puffs until I calm down. Anyway, I'm going to keep it to as much a minimum as I can and renew my effort again. I know now that it's a mental game and that I've got to want to quit with my whole being. I know how to beat the physical side of it, but how do I battle my own will? The fight has become me against me; how do I defeat myself?


NiceLady1957 62F

9/9/2006 7:47 pm

I talk to myself...have an angry argument as if what or whom I am angry over is there and carry on verbally loud and get it out of my system.

What the hell kind of picture is that that is posted on this blog....???...!!!...LOL


unstuff960 43F

9/14/2006 9:08 pm

Your daughter still needs a Dad as much as she did the day before her birthday! You don't have as empty of a nest as you think...

On quitting smoking...how long has it been since you smoked? If your mind is really ready to quit, there is a place in Taylorville that does accupuncture to help you quit. Consists of a small series of electrical impulses in your ear, helps with the cravings. IF your mindset is there you might try that.

If you have already tried that, you need better distractions...lol.


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