The touch I am missing  

actlikeanimals 61F
154 posts
2/6/2006 5:44 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The touch I am missing

The sparking of the sun danced on that lapping waters edge. As I stood there, by myself after a hard run, I could feel my heart lapsing to the mode of release. The ground was cool as I sat down and crossed my arms around my knees. What is it about water that draws me in? Not physically, but like watching the flames on the blue white timbers of a fire, I am mesmorized by them all. Sometimes, I see myself getting up and silently walking into the water. No restraint or recoil from the sudden temperature change. The water slowly rising up over my knees,then my waist,onto my breasts and finally my head. Then I am no more. The thought ends.

As I sat there on the shoreline, I thought about you. How I didn't want you to know my secret dreams and thought of you because you still need time. To speak my mind would jeopardize my goal and our progress.

I long for your whispers along side of me as you draw in the sand. To watch your face as you gaze in the same water as I and see your thoughts in your mind. How I have studied your face, the lines of your features and the softness of your eyelashes. I see the flakes of gold in your sharp blue eyes that I know are the reflections of the sun and sparks hidden deep in your soul that beg to get out.
Deeper still, inside your chest, I push open a small tiny opening and peer into the pain. Each time I take a little from you and take it upon me to lighten your burden for that is what I am called to do. Like a transparency, I can warm and serve only you. Yet you cannot know or feel me yet.
Back outside, I want to brush the outline of your lips with my fingertips. How I urn to draw my face closer to yours and touch my lips to yours. So slowly and tenderly. So lightly and easy. To see your longing and pleasure as I open my eyes for a glimpse of your extasy. Yes, I have kissed you many times in my mind.
I have held your other arm and watched you toss small stones in the water. I have watched the rings grow and one. I have laid my head on your shoulder and signed softly.
I have loved you in my mind.

but you won't ever know it..not yet..much later..when you are ready

rm_DarknStar 55F
2823 posts
2/6/2006 7:54 pm

WOW...I enjoyed that! Thx for sharing it!

F1reman6969 50M

2/6/2006 8:21 pm

hi act,
this is the first time i've read your blog and i'm glad i stopped in.
your writing is fantastic and i will definitely be back for a longer, more in-depth stay (maybe an overnighter?)
i like your style and i want to see more of it, but due to time constraints today....
i look forward to seeing more.
thanks for the great work.
and thanks for the interesting photos.


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rm_art_persists 52M
1789 posts
2/7/2006 6:37 pm

you have a beautiful voice

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