It Happened to Me  

actlikeanimals 61F
154 posts
3/26/2006 1:32 am

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5/3/2006 2:31 am

It Happened to Me

I have been online or at least working on a computer in some sort of capacity since 1980 something. In that time, I have accomplished alot of things, made educational acheivements and met a lot of really nice and genuine people. Everyone sincere and polite.

You hear all the time about bad things happening to the innocent online by bad people who manipulate and take advantage or worse steal your identity or take your money. There are even those who are mean and have evil thoughts that long to harm you.

It happened to me.

I never thought I would be here. Never thought there were people who really could hurt me on dating sites. I am very careful. Screening and meeting in broad daylight at very public places. I NEVER stray or get talked into doing something uncomfortable. I can say No and get my point across.

Still tonight, he hurt me. He tried and forced his way to touch places I didn't want him too. I felt the fear rising in my throat as I tried to stay calm to figure a way out. He didn't care. Not about me or who was looking. I have never felt so violated not just because of what he was trying but because other people ignored it.

I managed to get away. And my body shook and trembled the whole night. Inside my shell I tried to let the darkness shield me. Keep me safe as I struggled to not remember. The roughness, the grunting and the sickening whispers in my ears of dirty filty thoughts.

In harms way.....and now in my quiet room, I have terrifying thoughts that he hasn't gone away. He will stalk me.

I'm not sure about writing just now. Need time alone. Need to just try and get away from it. Though there never is.

reverend21 50M
1913 posts
3/26/2006 3:03 am

Wish I was closer, I'd deal with him for you, and stay over to help you rest easy, so that you would not worry about anything or anyone.

cozy1957 60M

3/28/2006 6:07 pm

Stay safe.

Get help if you need it. The police can be your friend here. They hate stalkers and creeps.

As for the mental pain and the fear, I have no clue. You know there are people who care for you...and hope you feel better soon.

Take care sweetheart.

daytyme4 48M

4/3/2006 10:17 am

Sorry to hear about you close call. sorry that someone didn't notice and help ya out. I Saw this happen one time in a bar at the beach and I stepped up to the plate spent the night in jail and got a fine for fighting in public {well public disturbance is what they called it} My advice on meeting people is not a bar but a well respected restaurant people tend to be more aware of disturbances in a restaurant not sure where this all took place. just be careful.

If this guy turns out to be stalking you just let me know i have friend on the force that can help.
as far as the mental state you are in I understand completely i am not gonna air my laundry on here but if you would like to talk just email me. there are things you can do and steps you can take to make yourself feel more secure.

daytyme4 48M

4/5/2006 6:16 am

    Quoting Goldmember_24kt:
    Damn. When I hear stories like that, I really wanna hurt someone. I guess I should be thankful I wasn't there, cuz you'd probably be testifying at a homicide trial. But I'm still sorry for the pain and fear this person has inflicted.
Yeah I almost did that night I saw this guy trying to take advatage of this girl she kept saying stop and he wouldn't then in the parking lot he tried to force her in the car it took 4 guys to pull me off him and her testifying to him trying to her is the only reason i didn't go to jail for a long time cause I fucked him up pretty bad.

NEsailor 70M

4/26/2006 1:42 pm

If he's on here, you might post his name, so others may be warned.

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