Sometimes, It Still Hurts  

absolutelynormal 57F
6016 posts
7/31/2006 4:20 pm

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8/1/2006 8:48 pm

Sometimes, It Still Hurts

I heard the door close as you left. You thought I was still sleeping, but I wasn't.

We had sex last night. It wasn't making love cause we're not in love anymore.

I remember a time when I couldn't wait for you to touch me. Now, at times I cringe at the thought. My heart belongs to another man.

I know you've had other women. I know you've had a multitude of partners while I remained steadfast and faithful to you.

I heard the door close when you left, for the last time. You called later that day to say you were moving to your mom and dad's. We didn't live together anymore after that day.

Somehow I thought having sex with you would sway you, get you to stay cause my babies love you so. It didn't work. At the time, I didn't matter, only my babies did.

Now I see how I failed them, not because I didn't get you to stay but because I didn't ask you to leave before that. All they ever saw was a miserable mother and a dad who was faking it. The role models they had were liars.

How will they know when they've met the right person? Will they think that miserabilty equals happiness? How will they know?

rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
7/31/2006 4:49 pm

Good question. My parents did the same thing and I have no idea what I am doing...

absolutelynormal replies on 8/1/2006 8:49 pm:
Maybe that's all that's wrong with all of us!!

ProtonicMan 49M

7/31/2006 4:54 pm

Maybe they'll learn from your example what NOT to do...


absolutelynormal replies on 8/1/2006 8:50 pm:
I sure hope so TJ.

rm_mmmgoodnova 107M/107F
1259 posts
7/31/2006 7:14 pm

They'll know...they'll figure it out. And if they don't the first, or even the second time...well, we all have to lead our own lives, live and learn, don't we? That is even with the best "role models", "perfect parents," or whatever. Common sense is not always genetic...then again, sometimes the children become the teachers and show the parents a thing or two.


absolutelynormal replies on 8/1/2006 8:53 pm:
They always do. They are both so smart, but the little one is wise.

jdocfunguy 51M

7/31/2006 8:24 pm

Definitely trying to break the cycle in my case. I tell my kids that I love them everyday and that's way more often than I ever told my future-ex or my parents ever told me.

absolutelynormal replies on 8/1/2006 8:53 pm:
I do that everytime I speak to mine. They need to hear but I need to say even more than they need to hear it.

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