absolutelynormal 57F
6016 posts
6/27/2006 5:54 am

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I didn't sleep well. I've been awake since about 615, I don't have to work today and I keep trying to go back to bed but it's just not working.

Here's what keeps going through my warped brain.

What would happen if my outside and my inside matched? You guys know how I think, but it doesn't translate into my everyday life. Few people "on the outside" know that I am here. I stay around here because it's a neutral place where I can be me.

It's sad to me that I believe that people would not be accepting of me if I behaved like "me" IRL.

So, what would happen to you if your inside matched your outside, or does it already?

I see you guys ready to type something like..."well if my inside matched my outside I guess I'd be really pink and just covered in blood vessels." *SMACK!*

And today is Tuesday if you want you blog pimped or know of someone who you would like to see pimped, let me know.

Here's the question again: So, what would happen to you if your inside matched your outside, or does it already?

Iwakura16Eyes 38F

6/27/2006 8:22 am

be true to you

something like this could mean a lot of different things to a lot of different people, I think I see what yer getting at. Mine matches, methinks--all except for that weight issue that is eating at me--but see? I look at it a bit different....

wait... it doesn't match... no one in my field/university really knows I am here. It's not a reflection on us either... I think it has a lot to do with societal taboos.... I think it's healthy to have a place where each part/side of you can come out n play... full expression... what a beautiful thing!

*shuts up*

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 7:53 am:
Yeah, this is how mine is too. I do not like my body, but even though my brain is kinda broken, I'm used to it now, I'll keep it.

digdug41 50M

6/27/2006 8:40 am

It pretty much does already Mac

roaming the cyber streets of blogland

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 7:53 am:
That's great DD

norprin5 56M

6/27/2006 9:03 am

i'm pretty transparent...what you see here is mostly what everyone else sees...

well, except i don't walk around with the Maple Leaf draped ever so casually across one buttock...

King Nor XVIII

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 7:54 am:
Likes what she sees

rm_1sexyroo 57M/57F
333 posts
6/27/2006 9:08 am

If my insides matched my outsides...I guess I'd still be a child! My inner child runs rampanat some days and then it gently gets reminded that it is an adult now
Is it safe to run with scissors yet???

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 7:54 am:
Prolly not.

rm_Twister2bed 48M
617 posts
6/27/2006 1:41 pm

My outside kinda already does match the inside. Not many folks know I'm on AdultFriendFinder but a few do and it wouldn't bother me much if the rest found out.

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 8:12 am:
That's cool

rm_wetfingeraz 55F
3012 posts
6/27/2006 4:13 pm

My house and car match my inside. Both are cluttered and unkept. My desk at work and my massage office are the exact opposite. I think that's because it's for other people, if you know what I mean. But that which is for me is not worth the effort to keep up.

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 8:13 am:
Mine too, and I'm the same way at work.

jdocfunguy 51M

6/27/2006 6:13 pm

Mine match. Unfortunately, I must attribute my lack of success, as I define success, to this match. I'm never able to present myself or my ideas in terms that are comfortable to others. Language to me is vague. Too many double or shaded meanings. I'm blunt, honest, and truthful. I expect others to be the same way. But very few are.

The fact is its all about presentation. Look at how we choose politicians. I've never been able to say, "I'm not an actor, but I play one in real life."

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 8:16 am:
You may be right in retail the personailty you described will NOT do.

rm_truedom2 57M
663 posts
6/27/2006 6:51 pm

I would prefer to keep public things public and private things private.

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 8:16 am:
Sounds right tru

absolutelynormal 57F
6563 posts
6/28/2006 8:17 am

Not weird at all. I feel the same way. I hide "me" irl, here I let it all hang out

rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
6/28/2006 4:59 pm

On the outside I am very reserved and I do NOT show my emotions. On the inside I have more emotions than I have ever known in my life, but people around me don't want to know things like that

ProtonicMan 49M

6/28/2006 5:02 pm

Great question, Mac.

I like to think I'm pretty genuine, both IRL and on my blog.

Context plays a huge role, though. Some things that are appropriate at the corner bar or at lunch with a couple of the guys are not safe topics around the coffee pot at the office, although they might come up in very hushed tones in certain cubicles.

I think one or two coworkers know I'm on AdultFriendFinder, but most don't. It's not that I'm ashamed of it (I DO have a full face pic on my profile), it's just that you have to get to know people better before you can discuss certain topics with them.

If I were to get involved in another relationship, even if it was a friend-with-benefits thing, I would make sure that person knew about my life in blogland.


complexlysimple 35M

6/28/2006 7:05 pm

sheesh I'm not really sure ...which 'me' are we talking about ..the geek, the character, the gentleman, the fighter ... it's kinda crowded in here Mac.

Lots of different sides and it doesn't help when it gets forgotten that everyone has 'other' sides ... sometimes I wonder if people actually listening ..'cause I know there are times where I've answered the exact same question from the same person on nearly a daily basis...

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