The Gift  

aascrompn 43M
6957 posts
3/13/2006 11:20 am

Last Read:
10/18/2006 6:24 am

The Gift


~ By Seether ~

Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me...

This is a great song for where I am today...

kelly402005 53F

3/13/2006 3:11 pm

~~You are sitting while writing this, right?
Well, I'll straddle your lap and hug your head to my chest........
Just, relax and calm down.......
I won't get up til you are........ I hate to hear you upset, baby...
OXOXOXO

kel


frangipanigal 46F
10406 posts
3/13/2006 5:22 pm

We must be on the same "cycle". Go check your mail.

Speak soon gorgeous one,

Frangi xx


sexyeyes375 48F

3/13/2006 5:29 pm

you have an amazing mind.

and you matter.


Sister_Act_4_You 39F/39F

3/13/2006 6:17 pm

As much as I love Seether...you need to turn them off and put something else on; well, after you're finished with feeling this way.

Sometimes this sort of music does help...but only for so long, right?


sdrose177 51F
4 posts
3/13/2006 10:05 pm

You are so sweet and caring, never forget that! You DO matter and if I could I would just reach in there and give you a hug...we all could use them from time to time My mother passed away when I was 10 years old...but I do remember her telling me to always "keep your chin up, hold your head up proud"! And being raised in a christian background...let God take care of your worries.
PS...Here's my hug


rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
3/13/2006 10:19 pm

when you feel like it....

your presence is requested for the games...for the tub...
what you think??? wanna join us??? goddess will rub your
feet another goddess could be rubbing your head. another
one yet might have your hands covered...feeling better yet?
[post 26938

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...
{=}


MOfunNOWWOW 56F

3/13/2006 11:25 pm

HUGS AAs hope you turn around soon to look in the mirror and feel good about it.


MOMO
just a squirrel trying to get a nut


MaggiesWishes 61F

3/14/2006 12:40 am

Mmmm... come out and play.
The water is just fine.

*nods at Goddess and smiles*.
::crosses fingers behind her back::

warm huggies
[post 269538]


TabithaElectra79 39F

3/14/2006 7:25 am

Wish I could help...


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:34 am

    Quoting rm_mineiswetter:
    You have nothing to be ashamed about!! Your a sweetheart.
    I'll hold you until you find HER. If you'll let me.
    ~Sending you hugs and kisses**
Thanks... that's a very nice gesture.


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:36 am

    Quoting foxtrotter2000:
    at times when everything seems so wrong, i'll hold your hands to tell you go on...when you feel like bursting into tears and everybody leaves, i'll stay...
Thank you! That was very nice. I must warn you, however, this is going to be a very rough ride.


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:36 am

    Quoting kelly402005:
    ~~You are sitting while writing this, right?
    Well, I'll straddle your lap and hug your head to my chest........
    Just, relax and calm down.......
    I won't get up til you are........ I hate to hear you upset, baby...
    OXOXOXO

    kel
Thanks kel! I hate to feel upset, but nothing is working!


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:37 am

    Quoting frangipanigal:
    We must be on the same "cycle". Go check your mail.

    Speak soon gorgeous one,

    Frangi xx
Lol - Maybe we are...


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:40 am

    Quoting sexyeyes375:
    you have an amazing mind.

    and you matter.
An amazing mind?? No, no I don't. I'm just one who likes to drop any and all of my thoughts onto the Internet, b/c I really have nothing better to do w/ my life. This is what it's all come to... Thanks for your kind comments!


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:41 am

    Quoting Sister_Act_4_You:
    As much as I love Seether...you need to turn them off and put something else on; well, after you're finished with feeling this way.

    Sometimes this sort of music does help...but only for so long, right?
I took them out... I put in Disturbed.


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:42 am



Peace is an illusion... Healing? When does that start?


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:46 am

    Quoting sdrose177:
    You are so sweet and caring, never forget that! You DO matter and if I could I would just reach in there and give you a hug...we all could use them from time to time My mother passed away when I was 10 years old...but I do remember her telling me to always "keep your chin up, hold your head up proud"! And being raised in a christian background...let God take care of your worries.
    PS...Here's my hug
Thanks for the gesture! I'm very sorry to hear about your losing your mother. It's really easy to say such easy things... I have fought for a really long time to do just that. It's just not working for me. Sure, I've made friends, but I haven't got somebody at the end of the day. Christian background - I'm not sure what do say about this. You see, I am considered a Christian, but I must admit that I've had my doubts a lot lately. I should'nt feel this alone if He was all that concerned.


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:49 am

    Quoting rm_goddess1946:
    when you feel like it....

    your presence is requested for the games...for the tub...
    what you think??? wanna join us??? goddess will rub your
    feet another goddess could be rubbing your head. another
    one yet might have your hands covered...feeling better yet?
    [post 26938
Thanks, goddess! I'm really just not in the mood right now for even all of that. It's almost that I feel like crawling into my corner to just be by myself. Yet, at the same time, I don't want to be by myself. It's all so damn confusing.


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:50 am

    Quoting MOfunNOWWOW:
    HUGS AAs hope you turn around soon to look in the mirror and feel good about it.
How are you feeling? I've missed you... As far as the mirror - maybe one day. It's not going to be anytime soon.


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:51 am

    Quoting MaggiesWishes:
    Mmmm... come out and play.
    The water is just fine.

    *nods at Goddess and smiles*.
    ::crosses fingers behind her back::

    warm huggies
    [post 269538]
Maybe when I feel as if I deserve it... sigh


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:52 am

    Quoting sweetneeds2:
    HUGS AND KISSES....among other things!!!


aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
3/14/2006 7:53 am

You just did... a little. Thank you.


crazygurl2xx 58F

3/14/2006 10:38 am

Personally I can relate to "if you want me hold me back..." HI!


pinkzplaytoyz 50F

3/14/2006 11:54 am

I wish I could say something
that would make a difference,
but I've lately found that I'm
No better off than you are!
Seether is great, btw!


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