Spinning Head  

aascrompn 43M
6957 posts
8/2/2006 6:27 pm

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Spinning Head

As I layed there last night, on the cool, damp floor, there was one, and only one thing that hit me the hardest. What had I done? How am I going to explain myself? I need her and I know she will be gone. How had my steadily upswing of life just come crashing down?

I knew that she would not understand. I knew that there was no running from this. I knew that I had to come clean. There was nothing else on my mind. The other people would be informed immediately of my mistakes. However, it was only her that I was concerned about.

As the day grew on, and I had still not fully calmed down, with my head growing steadily worse, and my stomach flipping w/ anxiety of informing her, I knew it was the end. I lost it all. I worked myself into such an anxious state, that I actually threw up. My nerves were shot. My medicine came up. What else could I do? I took a nap. I woke up every hour listening for her call. It never came.

My friends... My friend informed me of her being really scared for me. She was scared, not knowing what was going on. That hurt me the most. As manly as I am, I couldn't help but to tear up a little as I was relayed this information.

Then, when I had almost given up on hearing from her, she called... This was it! Now was the time. I had to tell her. I explained everything. Although she lectured me and made it well known she wouldn't deal with it again, she comforted me and was there for me to lean on. My life is not so bad afterall. I have an amazingly beautiful lady who knows when to be stern as well as when to be supportive. Hearing her voice was the most soothing thing I could've asked for.

~ AAS (Grateful for what I do have...)

Seriously_Real 49M

8/2/2006 6:39 pm

Listen to both parts of what she had to say equally, my friend. And of course that is what she did. Of course it is.

Pay attention to that, man. Good luck.


rm_macallan4u 47M
968 posts
8/2/2006 7:20 pm


TzarsAmuseChant 42M
2854 posts
8/2/2006 8:34 pm

lucky man, for sure.

TabithaElectra 39F

8/3/2006 1:40 am

    Quoting elbman:
    Your next profile pic should have a foot in that white arse.....Napoleon.....
I'll volunteer my foot, if you have a camera ready?!

funintheday2006 57M
9659 posts
8/3/2006 6:57 am

Stupid but, you already know that.
We are all allowed to fall sometime.
It's how you deal with the aftermath that counts.
You did good.
Build on it but, don't forget it.

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