My House  

aascrompn 43M
6957 posts
7/29/2006 6:41 pm

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My House

This is a picture of my exact house! This is what it will look like when it's all said and done.

I've just come to the conclusion tonight, that although I'm really excited about it, I'm not as excited as I was when I was sure that my girlfriend was going to join me. As strange as it sounds, the mind does a lot of wandering. As I sit here, bored out of my mind on a Saturday night, I'm beginning to slide into a slight depression. I'm sure that I'm due for it, as I've been on such a high as of late, but it's just not as cool as it was yesterday.

The more I've chatted w/ my girlfriend, the more dreaming we've done together. I've told her about local areas that she'd be interested in. I've told her of all kinds of stores around my area. I've told her that my best friend is 5 houses down from me. I've told her that my other best friend is one exit away from me. Things got really exciting... In my mind, my house had been rearanged... I knew that she was going to be the perfect roomate. I planned on specific upgrades to accomodate her likings. Now, the upgrades will still go in, and she probably won't be coming to enjoy them. We've dreamed of hot tubs (everything that happens in them), to local areas of entertainment for us to enjoy. I'm just not as excited about it as I was. Don't get me wrong, I know it's still the best decision I could've made, but I'm just depressed, b/c I thought everything was going to work out.

House update... My loan will not be going through my best friend. She was not able to compete w/ another lendor, and I've had to move on to better sources. She's awfully pissy about this, but again, business is business.

All that I can focus on now is the fact that I'm going to be living in the big home by myself... I'm just not as happy w/out sharing it w/ 'The One'...

ArtisticTwist75 42F
2505 posts
7/29/2006 7:29 pm

AAS - Unless I am mistaken, she has not told you that you are out on your ass. I understand what the mind does though, I recently did something similar. If I had just talked to my man it wouldn't have been an issue... but I didn't and it was. My opinion... until she tells you otherwise, look at life as you were. Cross the bridge when you have to... not before... and if it's bothering you that badly... talk to her. Regardless... I'll say a little prayer for your depression. It sucks... I know... Monster Hugs.


rm_mmmgoodnova 107M/107F
1259 posts
7/29/2006 7:33 pm

Ditto Artistic.

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