I am a dumbass!  

aascrompn 43M
6957 posts
4/12/2006 8:39 am

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I am a dumbass!

Yes, many of you are already aware of this!! Having anxiety is a real bitch! It causes many underlying discomforts that the body has a hard time processing.

Since I've been taking meds (lexparo) my body has stabilized! It's been great!! I recently started drinking coffee again. I had to quit, b/c the morning of my panic attack, August 24th 2005, I had about 6 cups of coffee before noon. It made me so jittery that my mind made me think that I was having a heart attack. My pulse was flying and I could not sit still. That caused me to panic and therefore hyperventilate. This caused my left arm to go numb, which you can figure out lead me to believe that I really was having a heart attack. I then went numb in my right arm... It was downhill from there.

I have this thing where I like to face all of my fears head on. Call it stubborn, call it military training, call it what you will. It's not acceptable to me to not be "normal". So, I started drinking coffee again just this week. I was able to drink two cups each morning (until today) and have no consequences. Some of you may wonder what the big deal is, but caffeine can cause one to become jittery. I never noticed until my panic attack what caffiene really does to the nervous system. This is why I had to stop drinking coffee (other drinks are ok). It caused me to think I was slipping back into a panic attack and I would freak out.

Today, I did the same. I started w/ two cups of coffee. Then I thought what the hell, what's one more going to do to me?? So, I drank another. Holy shit, bad idea. I'm writing this trying to calm down. My hands are shaking uncontrollably. I have not taken my emergency pill which calms me down w/in mins should I get into a panic attack that I can't control. I've yet to have to use one since about 1.5 months ago. I have it right next to me.

However, the good news is that I've worked myself through this mental hangup. I understand it's the caffiene that's causing this and I have not yet panicked. I have, since the last cup of coffee, drank about 8 cups of water to dilute the coffee. It's finally wearing out!

To those of you out there that want to know what anxiety is all about and what one goes through w/ this affliction, this is a prime example. Your body is confused as to where the bad signals are coming from. It truly can be very frightening!!

I beat it today, as I will tomorrow, as I will the next day. An affliction is just that. It's a quirk, nothing more, nothing less. I will not be controlled by it. I will live my life as I choose to live it and I will deal w/ the underlying, myseterious discomforts! I won!

HBowt2 60F

4/12/2006 11:14 am

2 feet on the ground and breathe....and drink caffeine free...some challenges are just not sane...

EroticaXTC 51F

4/12/2006 11:30 am

the only caffeine I drink is when I drink coffee...which isn't daily anymore...I shy away from it now because it contributes to a digestive problem I had in the past...however I have to have it at times in my migraine medication...
but I didn't realize what relation it could have in panic attacks...and I've had a few of those to crop up this year...something I've never had a history of...and this may help explain why they happened!
Thank you for this post!!

Sulabula 46F
12659 posts
4/12/2006 11:31 am

You just have to take it one step at a time...and u will conquer it

Sula xxx

come visit my blog

Synn74 43F
1206 posts
4/12/2006 11:38 am

your not alone my friend

me and my anxiety have battling this week I refuse to let it get me

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

pandoo5 61M
398 posts
4/12/2006 12:02 pm

So many helping you what I am doing here, HAVE A GOOD DAY , stick with dc.

bardicman 51M

4/12/2006 1:23 pm

When my hands shake uncontrollably.. I just grab my cock and hand on. Its not masturbation that way, its theraputic.


Whats missing?



I am not dead yet

zebra_buggy 32F

4/12/2006 3:05 pm

At least it sounds as though you remain acutely aware of your own body and what it can and cannot handle. You seem to be able to make the needed adjustments in order to get through these periods of crisis without going off the deep end. Yes, you allow yourself certain excesses from time to time, and when your body reacts accordingly, you pinpoint the problem in a rational manner. Perhaps that's half the battle; knowing your limitations, but still pushing the proverbial envelope, thereby allowing yourself to feel something that's real. It's good that you can express these emotions so eloquently. Nicely done! By the way, I'm not trying to be a shrink or anything ... although I play one on TV ...


warmandsexy52 65M
13164 posts
4/12/2006 4:15 pm

Great to see you battling your demons and pulling through.

Try drinking nothing else but water during the day and plenty of it and you might become aware of some major changes in how you feel.

All the best


frangipanigal 46F
10406 posts
4/12/2006 4:24 pm

Well done for beating it today (and yes you will beat it tommorrow and the day after). Everything in moderation.

On a lighter note, I told you not to go to Brazil this morning for your coffee!! You know watching the waxing sends you into a spin!!

Frangi x


4/12/2006 5:09 pm

Cool....afflictions are a bitch! I have epilepsy. I never miss a pill. I never have a problem.

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

kelly402005 53F

4/12/2006 5:19 pm

Mind over matter!!!
..... Keep it up!
You'll get it right!

Luv ya,

woofff 42F

4/12/2006 5:30 pm

Dear Aascrompn
Hey, you. Am woofff myself. Am visiting for the very first time A, an' I need help,pls.

Its just that a few less exclamation marks and I think I would've been clear whether to feel like laughing or empathizing with you.As can tell, is a very basic thing not to be clear about.

I'l be back whether you reply or leave me to puzzle it out on my own.

With a smile,

woofff 42F

4/12/2006 5:32 pm

Dear A
I forgot to tell you something: I like your face. I really do. Inexplicably it reminds me of Kermit the Frog.


LustyTaurus 49M
21253 posts
4/12/2006 7:46 pm

life would just be boring with out the occasional panic attack...embrace it!!!...celebrate it!!!...you don't know what you've got till its gone...


mycin62 55F

4/12/2006 7:46 pm

Hey, dude, hang in there, it will get better. I have panic disorder, myself, no longer need to be medicated, but have been in the past. Some things that helped me, get rid of the caffeine, in all forms, the only thing I allow myself is a little chocolate, whenever I want. There are tons of de-caf beverages out there and once you get used to the taste, they're ok. As far as coffee goes, why don't you try mixing 1/2 regular and 1/2 decaf. Exercise and meditation help too. I really understand where you are coming from, I've been there, an anxiety attack is really scary. Once you get to know your disease and how it effects you, and you will get to know it, you'll be able to control it better. Any time you want or need to chat let me know.


Cowboy_Deluxe 39M

4/12/2006 8:21 pm

Woolf! Thats what meds does to him..

Really man, flex those muslces and show life who the boss is!


jadedbabe78 107F

4/12/2006 8:31 pm

Good for you! You will overcome and defeat.

Hugs ~ Jadey

absolutelynormal 57F
6563 posts
4/12/2006 9:39 pm

HEY DUMBASS No more coffee for you! I'm just teasing you, sounds like you have to push the limits to see what's gonna happen, and now you know. Drinking cofee hurts you, so don't drink it. I like icecream, it doesn't like me. I can relate to your situation although I don't need anything to make me nervous, I can do that all by myself. mac

absolutelynormal 57F
6563 posts
4/12/2006 9:39 pm

HEY DUMBASS No more coffee for you! I'm just teasing you, sounds like you have to push the limits to see what's gonna happen, and now you know. Drinking coffee hurts you, so don't drink it. I like icecream, it doesn't like me. I can relate to your situation although I don't need anything to make me nervous, I can do that all by myself. mac

EyeCandy33333 45F
761 posts
4/13/2006 12:40 am

Darling-I have to remind myself to breathe-take deep breaths-for some reason-I go a hundred miles an hour and forget-rushing. Running helps and working out too. Sex helps a lot!!!!!!Be rite over!

fantasylover_05 63M

4/13/2006 4:29 am

Aas little buddy

All things in MODERATION!!

I am truly glad you are getting a better handle on the anxiety attacks... but geeze man... go easy on the coffee since it obviously has an adverse effect on you!!

For some reason caffiene does not have the same effect on me... I can literally drink a huge mug of coffee and go directly to bed and sleep....

Did you know coffee causes increases in cortisol levels which cause your body to store fat around your waist?

Remember buddy.... ONE cup... maybe two at the most.. why push it??

twirly_girl 48F

4/13/2006 10:07 pm

I've taken Lexapro before. It really helped.
I'm allergic to marijuana, so don't think
that contributed to my anxiety attacks. LOL
I never had an adverse reaction to caffeine or coffee.
Actually I started consuming more of the stuff which seemed
to boost my energy that the lexapro took. LOL
It'll work out. I promise. You just have to be patient.


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