I Give Up...  

aascrompn 43M
6957 posts
7/21/2006 11:37 pm

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10/18/2006 7:52 am

I Give Up...


Something has to go wrong between you and I... Something is not right. It's not from my end, it'll have to be from your's...

My loan may not go through... It probably won't... I will find out Monday. My stupid fucking mistakes are going to catch up to me and you should know that. I was fucking stupid to be engaged to a stripper... I was fucking stupid for draging you in... I was fucking stupid to think that I could actually make a difference... I was fucking stupid to think that what I do would be good enough in life... I'm fucking stupid.

Here I am... I am alone. It would not surprise me to think that this is how it's going to be... It would not surprise me to find out that you are going to work things out. It would not surprise me to find out that althought I have a heart, and I think of things that he doesn't, that I'm still not going to win.

This is what I'm used to thinking... I'm used to trying to be somebody's number one. I'm used to thinking about food, baths, candles and romantic things, but in the end, somebody else always wins... You will not offend me! Just tell me I'm right, and I'm gone... I Love YOU!!!!!!

Please tell me that it's going to be like every other occasion... Please let me know that I'm waisting both of our time.... Please tell me that no matter what, nothing is really going to happen... This is what I'm used to.

Let me further explain... I'm not used to success.... I'm not used to somebody, other than my mother, loving me. I'm not used to being supported for me... I'm just not used to this. I'm fully expecting for you to let me know this won't work out... I'm fully expecting for you to pick up on my attitude. I can't hide it. I won't hide it... Do you really, honestly, love me??

~ AAS (confused again)

LustyTaurus 49M
21253 posts
7/22/2006 12:55 am

You don't have to be used to it...just accept it


aascrompn replies on 7/24/2006 11:24 am:
That's a very good idea!

warmandsexy52 65M
13164 posts
7/22/2006 12:50 pm

Believe. It is happening.

Put down that drink, pick up that baton and go aas, go.

warm


aascrompn replies on 7/24/2006 11:24 am:
Can I use the bottle as the baton??

TabithaElectra 39F

7/23/2006 10:58 am

You know you can always ask and you know you will always get the answers...


aascrompn replies on 7/24/2006 11:24 am:
Yes, dear...

TabithaElectra 39F

7/24/2006 2:53 pm

"Yes, dear..." ~~

You know I hate it when you say that!!!

Arrrrggghh!


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