What do you do when your life is better than you thought it would be?  

XJackinyourBoxX 43M
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8/9/2006 2:12 pm

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What do you do when your life is better than you thought it would be?

I'm separated (and not going back...).
For the past 5+ years I fought the idea that that was what my life was going to be (till death do us part... well I was dying inside).
We had sex somewhat frequently the first year (always after drinking heavily). After that, I would have been lucky to have sex each time we elected a new president. I wasn't allowed to make decisions. I had no control. I had no spine. My balls were kept in a locked box in a drawer and I didn't have the key.

I fought it. I didn't want to live that way. Yes I did care about her, but it was no longer love. We were roomates that fought a lot.

Now I'm away from her. I control my own life now. I've met women and had sex with them. I have a better paying job. I have friends I do things with. It's far from perfect, but more than I expected this time last year.

If you're unhappy with your life, don't give up. Do something about it. We all have the ability to change and control our own lives. Don't let others have the control.


8/9/2006 2:58 pm

Well said darlin'. You are absolutely right.

clitalicious67 50F

8/10/2006 11:08 am

Wow roomates that fought alot...I have said something very similar before...

Way to go!


florallei 100F

8/10/2006 10:38 pm

I agree with you...dying inside and remaining in a very unhealthy relationship is like wasting your life away. Your decision to do something about it was courageous. I remained 22 yrs. in mine and I wished I had the balls (figuratively) to walk away 22 years sooner.

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