Ah... I sometimes wish I was that young...  

WhyteRavenne 42F
106 posts
4/13/2006 9:02 pm

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4/18/2006 10:23 pm

Ah... I sometimes wish I was that young...

I made a poor decision. Again. I got used, horribly, this time. I’ve never been a woman that takes from a person, everything, money, lust, expectations, and leaves them. However, I know that it’s more likely to happen to a guy, than a girl. Well, this weekend past (not the one we are going into), I was used. I paid for the drinks, I knew what I wanted, but, since HE didn’t like pizza, I didn’t get to eat. Instead HE wanted wine. For the record, I’ve never liked wine. I bought the bottle. We went home to MY place, and HE picked the crappiest movie, I had to pay for. Then HE put the porn channels on and expected ME to blow him. I got bored of his whining, drunk on wine and screwdrivers and hadn’t eaten, so I did. He became an asshole and tried to make me swallow… gross times a million. THEN, he had to go home. What did I get? Shallow self-esteem drop, money that was supposed to last me a month gone, a bottle of wine that was almost gone, a crappy movie I didn’t want to see and being sick as all hel the next day. I’m probably allergic to wine, since I only had a glass, and I still have red dots all over myself. I’ve been feeling like shit for the last week.

I don’t think there is a moral. I could let it harden me, like most people do. I could lean on my friends, but, instead, I’ve avoided everyone. I could do a lot of things. I’ve chosen the selfish, leave me alone route.

Fucker. This is the reason I hate, hate, hate one night stands. They can go so horrible, and no one will give a fucking rats ass. It’s not like I’m hard to get or anything… obviously. Just another reason that I say no, eh?

-Stupid Bird

As to the title.. well, that pic is 12 yrs old... and I think I'm just as dumb.


JustExploring96 48M

4/14/2006 2:00 am

I'm sorry to hear that you had to endure that having been used and discarded myself I know what it has done to my own headspace. Oddly though it is usually the people that I thought were my friends that end up being the ones that did that.

It sucks. I'm not big on one night stands myself but having been used by people I deeply cared for I am still uncertain which is worse. But I know for myself I will continue to hope for those that allow themselves to do so may be vulnerable to pain but they are still living instead of just existing.

All I can say is this jerk really is not worth your time or the injury to your self-esteem.


Bachelor212 56M

4/15/2006 11:22 pm

I wouldn't say just as dumb or anything like that, i would say brave enough to be open and take a chance.

ricardo1961


smackyman 47M
3849 posts
4/15/2006 11:48 pm

WOW - rough night! It's not really a matter of learning while you go - not that everyone doesn't - it's just that there is no predicting when a guy or girl is going to be a complete ASS! The only thing that I can suggest is forget the guy - but not the experience.
Maybe the odds will play in your favour next time and the guy will be personable, hot, good in bed and be able to pick a good movie? Hmmm...


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