What am I looking for from life ?  

Westhill19 54M
103 posts
5/1/2006 8:32 am

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5/3/2006 8:52 am

What am I looking for from life ?

I only wish I knew the answer.
Am I healthy ? Physically,Yes.Mentally,I don't know.I have been receiving treatment,medication only,for depression for almost 3 1/2 years.Am I depressed ? I don't know is the honest answer.The only thing I know is that all the old phobias which blighted most of my adult life don't bother me now so I guess the medication has worked.On the subject of phobias,can I just say something,which should probably be a new post.That is,the ''link'' between cannabis use and mental illness.I can only comment on my own experience,which was that whilst working on an oil platform around 25 years ago,I smoked cannabis.This resulted in me suffering an anxiety or ''panic attack'' To cut a very long story short,this was the catalyst for a series of psychological problems which affected me.These included,depression,anxiety attacks,compulsive behavior,intrusive thought process,to name but a few.Was the cannabis to blame ? I honestly don't know.We geminis tend to be a psychologists meal ticket anyway,lol.Were these problems,like a cancer,already there waiting for a ''trigger'' eg.in my case long hours in the middle of the north sea.I guess I'll never really know,or to be honest,care.I only wish I knew then what I know now,that being several things.I should have sought medical advice immediately and not tried to deal with the problem alone,only making it much worse.I wasn't the only person in the world who felt this way.I wasn't going mad,etc.Age and wisdom have their advantages I guess,often too late to use to our advantage in certain situations.
Where was I,oh,god knows.I've went away off on a tangent again,sorry,lol.I tend to do that all the time,hahahahaha.It's been fun though,free therapy,lol.Take it easy and good afternoon to you all...

ArgosPlumyKooky 46F
3902 posts
5/1/2006 10:45 am

your honesty kics ass. . . in the winter i get REALLY blu. . no stimulation from green here so not sure about the connection you are making. ..but you come across as smart and lively. . . what make you happy.. .maybe try and make more time in your life for it. have a good rest of the day. . .

Westhill19 54M

5/1/2006 11:56 am

At last,someone who appreciates my honesty,thank you,lol.
Thanks for the compliments,you are too kind.
And,my next post is dedicated to you,please read and enjoy.
Oh,and I still smile at your first comment on my blog,brilliant !!
And,he says rambling on again,I love your pic.
You have a good rest of the day too and take care of yourself.

ArgosPlumyKooky 46F
3902 posts
5/1/2006 2:25 pm

. . . . hey. . .hey! don't you be using your gemini pull on me boy. . . .runs away FAST

Westhill19 54M

5/1/2006 3:08 pm

See,you're making me laugh again,lol.
Take it easy...
P.S.You look very sexy...oops,doing it again,sorry hahahahaha

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