Why did I move here?  

WellhungTrigger 44M
267 posts
9/27/2005 10:14 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Why did I move here?


Ya know, this seemed like a good decision about a year and a half ago. But now, I'm just living a big ass headache. I moved here to get away from all the crackheads, meatheads, and otherwise nefarious types that abound in my hometown, Fayetteville, NC. (See also, Fayettenam, Failureville, etc.)

But at what point are we running from where we are, rather than who we are? Maybe I was doing a little of both. I DEFINATELY don't miss talking to crackheads everyday. I don't miss all the GI's taking up all the quality women. Nor do I miss going to court and it's like a high school reunion. (Hey, Bob! haven't seen you in years, whatcha in here for?)

I do miss my family, my very tight knit circle of freinds, the familiarity, everyone knows your name. My favorite ex. Shit like that.

I came here to sort shit out, get a better paying job, find a good woman, and possibly go to the beach about three times a week. Now, it seems, none of those things are really happening.

Some are happening to some degree. I'm older and wiser for one. I've gone to the beach alot more than I was, (I LOVE the beach!). I've found no good women, but gotten laid alot, ALOT! So, I guess that ain't too bad.

Maybe it's the frustration that I have with my job. Why is it that the only good pay these days is working for assholes?
Great $15 an hr? Sure! Start by digging out that pile of manure over there. And hurry up!!!

So, probably my woes are all due to money. I hate money. I never have had enough. I owe all kinds of cash to all kinds of people, and I feel bad for it. I feel guilty buying a beer when I owe Joe Blow $4.

Where was I going with this? I don't know. I guess I need to tell myself that I'm glad I moved here, but at the same time, it seems that my #1 problem has still followed me around.

There it is. That's where I was going with my schpeel. That's what ties my intro with my outro.

Advice is more than welcome and might even be envoked.

sweetthang2877 41F
534 posts
10/1/2005 2:00 pm

I've said it before but maybe it means more in written word...You sometimes have to do the gruntwork to get the nice cushy office job where the hilite of your day is to throw pencils up into the ceiling tiles!

I had to go through all the different jobs that the bar I work at had to offer me before I finally got the job I didn't even know I wanted so much!! Being a DJ was a lot of fun, but I just really wanted to be the bartender there. Turns out I get better hourly pay (minus the tips) and I do A LOT less work!


rm_luke69iner 49M
3275 posts
10/2/2005 9:04 am

Trigger

maybe it's our thoughts most of that influence what's good and bad ... true and false

nothing wrong with moving away from a physical or methaphorical area that doesn't serve you

you're right many of our problems find us

you're doing the right thing though you're searching for answers

good luck


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo
.
~Dante~


WellhungTrigger 44M
282 posts
10/6/2005 9:49 pm

Thanks, Luke!
You see people, this is what I'm talking about when I say "advice is welcomed"....
Clear, concise, to the point...

Well done.

A+


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