Life loving you............  

VoidOfDesire 40F
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4/17/2005 12:23 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Life loving you............


I know now that I can't take anymore
It's not your attitude, it's not the way you get mad,
And it's not the way you look at me when you're angry.
It's not your fault that I can't look at you without wanting so much more.
But then again, maybe it is.
Maybe you are the one to blame for the way I feel about you,
But I won't get spiteful or angry towards you;
I'll just keep hurting every single time I see you hurt.
I'll keep wondering why you break so many of the rules,
Yet keep our friendship the rule you still refuse to compromise.
I'll keep watching all the little things you do,
And keep comfort in the fact that I may be the only one who notices them.
And I will still cry in your absence,
Every time you shower your affections onto whoever isn't me.
It's not your fault that I can't look at you without wanting so much more.
But then again, maybe it is.
I witness a change in every month of the year;
Some are for the best, but most are for the worst.
But now I am learning to except the changes as they come,
And even if they do come all too often,
I witness a change in every month of the year,
And yet I still wait for you in December
Because I know with all of my heart that my love for you is permanent,
The one and only true thing that will never change.
So I'll just keep hurting, every time I see you hurt.
I'll keep watching all the little things you do,
And keep comfort in the fact that I may be the only one that notices them.
I wait for you to want more from me,
And I wait for you to ask me what you will,
In hopes that I can make you feel complete at last.
And yet I know you may be waiting on me as well;
Patiently and silently waiting on me to make a difference in my own life.
Improving it so that you might find warmth and stability in the life I live.
And still I remain stubborn and oblivious to these things
Who would want to settle for this kind of person I am now?
And why should someone like you have to settle at all?
The answer is very simple
You won't.
And I will never expect you to settle for this child you see in me now.
So I ask you, my most cherished friend, to remain the friend you are,
And bear witness to the changes that will soon approach.
All my love to you

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