Onward to the future  

TurnLock 61M
454 posts
8/26/2006 6:18 am

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Onward to the future

Life changes everyday, this we know. People go and people come into our lives, some are memorable and leaves trails for us to follow. I have had many mentors during my lifetime, the ones that stand out were the ones in the Army. There is a bond you get when you spend so much time with people and share like experiences. They instilled in me the desire to always be the best and never ever go to Physical Training (PT) when we could go to a strip club instead. I hold these principals to this day.

They taught me that life can be serious and we hold many responsibilities that affect our way of life, we still can take the time to see the lighter side and enjoy life. The military is as serious as you can get. They will not let you quit and go home. If you fuck up enough, they send you to prison and then make you complete your time when you get out. So flying right is the best way to go.

I bring this up because my future doesn’t look too bright. I’ve allow the serious side of life to bring me to this state. I forgot who I was, that silly man who told that stripper that her performance was the single best event in my life at that time. Or the rebellious soldier that told his Captain that his treatment of his troop was something that he should be ashamed of and that in battle, following him wouldn’t be my first or second choice. Or the me that took no shit off any man or women who for whatever reason felt that I reminded them of a toilet to flush. Or the me that stood up to my racist supervisor and told him that it was not my responsibility to instruct him on how to do his job or explain the rules that he was currently violating by his mistreatment of me, he could look them up from my detail complaint.

I’ve become passive, soft, serious and wuss like in some aspects. I’m still up for the good fight, but I’m not impetuous as before. I don’t thrill seek any more, I’m more sedentary a word my son is studying for ACT’s. I see my future alone time as an opportunity to not delve into what I have become, but to address what I still need to be.
I need to be a certified Microsoft Trainer. So I’m gearing up for the next six months of studying. I need to enjoy myself more; sex would be a great start, if I can get past ED issues and the short term effects of sex. I need to get out of the house more, staying in saps my social skills and quickly preps me for that rocking chair I’ve been eyeing.

I don’t need the strip clubs anymore, but they would be fun to see once in awhile, but not necessary. I do need to change my focus to have fun and make sure that my children know that their father is thinking about them and kicking their butts on-line with Playstation or computer based games.

As for the girls, they just want to know that I’m still a live and not stressed. I’m sure I can pull that off.

qyxx 61F
3334 posts
8/26/2006 10:56 am

Ah, Turnlock.....you have reached that stage in your life where you are mellower, your focus has changed. Its all about how you handle this change.


amoldenough 71F
16436 posts
8/30/2006 5:07 pm

It's called maturity. Something that a lot of us value in a man.

"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."

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