Mood = Clueless  

ToyLoverMmmmm 48F
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5/30/2006 4:53 pm

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6/9/2006 3:57 pm

Mood = Clueless

Not sure how this all works. (Never heard that online before, have you?) Guess I'm not writing to anyone in particular, so I'll just write.

Um. Just ended a several-year relationship with a really awesome guy. (We just never got the sex right, from day one.) Hope to remain friends, but y'know how that goes.

All my sexual fantasies involve multi-men, toys, and light bondage. Pleasantly surprised that there are so many guy pairs at this site.

Gawd, I've got loads to talk about but I'm worried he'll read this and tell me I should stay out of trouble. And I expect I'll get some rude comment from another anonymous human being out there. Those hurt sometimes. Other times they're very amusing!

So, anyway. Aside from the broken record fantasy, I also imagine I'd be happier in a long term relationship with 2 men who love each other and me. Imagination and fantasy. Welcome to my world.

If YOU'RE reading this (and you know who you are TMC) well, stop. I'm just curious for now (like you are) and I'm not in any more trouble than usual. I'm feeling sexual again (what a coincidence, just days after our split) (sorry, that's a low blow, but it's true) and this online stuff is a comfortable way for me to explore.

This blog thing feels so wierd. Is there anybody out there? Why do my privates feel all excited while writing this?

Hmmm. A place I can babble whatever is on my brain, without the embarrassment of knowing I'm boring you to death. Seems like a girl's best friend.

Gotta go. Honestly. The cat is starting to jump on things to get my attention.

spacecadet561 61M

5/30/2006 6:19 pm

Welcome to blogland, where you can say what you want. You may occasionally get flamed. With a handle like yours you will get some lewd comments, indecent propositions, and so on.

Most triangles wind up being infernal, so be careful what you wish for. Good luck in your quest.



5/30/2006 7:14 pm

[COLOR deeppink]I hope you find what you are looking for and become very happy----!!!!!!!! Good Luck!!!!![/COLOR]

ToyLoverMmmmm 48F

5/31/2006 10:24 pm

What the fuck? I can't respond to people in my blog unless I pay? Whatever. Spacecadet, I feel so sorry for you. How long has it been like this? How did it start? Do you really have no other options?

Well, I know when I'm 49 (if I get that far) I won't be like you or a lot of other unhappily married people I've read about. But I don't hold much hope for finding Mr and Mr perfect, or even just Mr perfect. I don't have the patience or the thick skin, to sample the zillions of possibilities out there til I find the RIGHT situation. I'm thinking the closest I'll get to perfect is some sort of sex with someone on some kind of regular basis. Hopefully once a week. I can deal with once a week. I can live with once a week. Any more, or less, just doesn't feel balanced.

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