My Quest  

TeddyBaral 54M
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6/17/2006 10:54 am

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6/18/2006 1:55 pm

My Quest

I read a post in another blog today that summed up exactly what I am feeling and what I am looking for and it really got me thinking.

For every one time I get asked why I am on a site like this there are 5 times that I get chastised for being on a site like this. I get it because I'm married but I don't let the critisism get me down. It's my business and my business only but at the same time I do try to enlighten those who ask. Some of them accept my explaination and some of them still view me as pond scum. Either way, it's their call and I'm fine with it. I'm the one looking at myself in the mirror and I like what I see. I'm so comfie wiht it all that I joined a great new group here, sinner , check it out.

For me, I'm here not because of what I have but because of what is missing and can't be found were I'm at right now. I want to find a woman who is hungry for me when we are together. Someone who wants to experience "dirty things" with me in a free, secure, uninhibited, non-demanding, willing & eager enviroment. I want someone who is willing to acknowledge my desires and accept them for what they are, the healthy expression of an adult. I don't want to break the law, I don't want to offend public morals, I don't want to do anything disgusting. I just want to find someone who wants to freely enjoy all that being a healthy, horny adult entails.

I once had a special lady with which I was able to share such desires with. We respected and cared for each other as only two lovers could. We both had our own families and lives and we greatly respected that in each other. She desired me as much as I desired her and when we were together we were the center of each others universe. When we were apart we were the best of friends, eager to share the day to day joys and sadnesses in our lives through e-mails and the odd phone call, all the time planning our next encounter with each other.

We engaged in personal sexual episodes, some mildly public exchanges, threesomes, bi and we were hoping to engage with a larger group some day but it was not destined to be. If it interested us, we tried it at least once if we could. It was truly a free and uninhibited time and she helped to draw me out of my shell somewhat.

We are appart only because I had to move due to work committments but we still remain good friends. Thats what made things so special. We always knew that if the sex ever stopped for any reason we would always remain friends. There was that mutual respect and caring that will always remain. I'm even thrilled that she was able to find a new partner who seems to be good for her. I'm jealous that I haven't yet but there is always hope.

HeartlessBitch69 47F

6/18/2006 11:42 am

I thought I had found that. But it is getting to the point that it is 2 months or so inbetween times that I see him. And I don't see it getting any better.

TeddyBaral 54M

6/18/2006 1:38 pm

I'm sorry to hear that Heartless. Balancing your play time with real life committments is never easy. What was good with Karen and I, when we had it, was that between those times that we got hot and sweaty we were always in touch sharing lifes events and exchanging info about what else we were up to. It was a friendship first with the benifits part a close and ever present part. Not easy to achieve but very special when it all comes together. If I hadn't moved we would still have the benifits part but we still have the friendship part accross all the miles.

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