TammyDHU 46F  
972 posts
3/24/2006 11:04 pm

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4/8/2006 6:43 pm


I think I've experienced possibly the worst day ever in all my life.

The downfall of my aunt's health has come to an alarming degree and I had a very difficult time dealing with her today. She has her good days but today was the day I've seen her at her very worst. I had been terrified all day I might have been forced to send her off to the hospital.

In the meantime we still have a business to run and the clientele still comes over. It's very difficult to run this business together when one is very ill. I had to come home and do some followup emails to try to explain some things privately that I cannot discuss in the presence of my aunt at the business office.

Going home I found I had some of the same old bullshit contentions with an old friend going on waiting for me. I held Goldie for a while and the little shit swatted me in the face for being gone too many hours today.

But, during the day, I did not have to be with my aunt alone. A lovely God-fearing client, pregnant at 40 with her fourth child, came by to offer some glimpses of her faith and charity work to us while involved in her tax return. My mother stopped by to see me and stayed for a spell to chat. A friend came by and agreed to run to fetch some food for us. Later another God-fearing woman stopped by and I was pleased to hear she is actually a Eucharist minister and shared her faith with us also. She spent two hours talking and then said to us she would keep us both in her prayers. It was great fun to share with her the fact I grew up as the daughter of a church organist and am one of a very small percentage of the people my age who can boast owning all ten years of my Sunday School pin.

At the end of the night, I sat and hung my head and wanted to cry over the bad things. Inherently I knew I must pray. When I started that prayer in my head, first of all, I wanted to whine and cry and ask Him just why He sometimes puts me through all this shit in my life.

But then I remembered my blessings, and humbly thanked Him for being with me, and for sometimes carrying me through it all.

2943 posts
3/25/2006 2:20 am

And He you already know...xo
Hope things get better for you soon.


corvairguy 66M

3/25/2006 4:53 am

I firmly believe there is a reason for everything. We may not know the reason why at the time, or ever, but I still believe it. Just believe in your faith and all will be well.



_CoffeeNoCream_ 54F

3/25/2006 8:34 am

Lotsa hugs,...knuffels

Liefs C

rm_bluball40 51M

3/26/2006 2:49 pm

Hey ya Tammy, ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))),

I am local and I guess I am not quite sure what your business is but if I can be of any help beyond an ear please don't hesitate.

rm_bluball40 51M

3/26/2006 3:13 pm

don't let the profile mislead you. It's merely my distraction for my discretionary ways.

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