Silent mourning  

Synn74 43F
1142 posts
8/23/2005 7:42 am
Silent mourning

This will be my hardest blog to date ..

After a wonderful year of friendship I am losing a man I cherish because of being online to the point it's become an obsession and interfering with actual life . I understand how it is. He has been my primary reason for being on as much as I have. We are both married and seperated by 6000+ miles. He says we will still keep in touch through emails as we both still care how the other is doing. We have tried to seperate before always finding ourselves back ineach other's life but now I truly feel this is the goodbye that was avoided for so long.

There are days I wish we were both single because I would be in Melbourne pursuing all that is possible with him allowing the passion that I feel for him to consume every ounce of me without regret. He knows how I feel in regards to us as well. To not have him in my life is heartbreaking. I wear a charm of crossed US and AUS flags as a reminder of our friendship and that wherever we go in this life he will always be apart of me.

I think he keeps up with my blogs still
and if not I feel a little better in baring my soul.

To my friend IF by chance you read this...

You have carresed my soul
and held my heart
even now as we say goodbye
I am still with you.

Know that I have always believed you are my soulmate my beautiful forbidden love.. someday we will be together if not in this life you hold the key to my heart the window to my soul
I will cherish all that we had and love you for all that you gave me I will still LOVE YOU Tommorrow and through eternity.

* kisses*

Song: "Addicted" Enrique Iglesias

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