Dear Dear Diary  

Synn74 43F
1142 posts
2/5/2006 8:35 pm
Dear Dear Diary

Day 21

Of no interaction with my spouse yet why do I even care... I shouldn't I've pretty much reached the conclusion he's not interested considering in the last 72 hrs I've had 2 small kisses a kiss on the cheek due to the fact he turned his head and I think maybe a hug or I complaining I pissed yes..because I shouldn't even need to deal with this okay so I'm not a beauty queen but I don't think I'm ugly yet he makes me feel it everyday by the non interaction ..let's not even talk about sitting together watching a movie or snuggling ... I really don't even care if he ever touches me again but I want that connection with someone again and notjust a one night stand..hell if I wanted that I'd beg hubby for the sex...

No I'm not throwing a pity party.. just putting frustrations into words... just want someone to care about me again in every aspect of my life is that too much to ask?

but I will say I have made a wonderful friend who in this past month has made me feel worth more than I can express in words beautiful thing it is

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

rm_sharksnsails 47M
738 posts
2/6/2006 7:44 pm

uh, even more intresting because, I generally encourage people to remain as faithful as possible (this includes internet) in a relationship. Iether your in or out, if your out, get out, then go play, if your in, work on it, get counciling, or just make some blog buddys but don't cheat, i did that once and it isn't worth it. It's not about whether your lying to the guy, its about lowering yourself to lying. dishonesty is the hardest road i ever walked, (the lonliesst too)

rm_sharksnsails 47M
738 posts
2/6/2006 7:38 pm

I cant wait to get into this one,
wondering where it all went wrong, why doesn't he touch you, im sure you are beautiful in your many ways, how to rekindle love, don't give up on him yet....
get a fire cracker, youll just need one, pop it sometime unexpected, that will get his attention.
like, have a candle by the bed, and when he rolls away from you, just light it and POP instant adrenilin the ultimate guy spanish fly...
just a thought,

aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
2/6/2006 5:31 pm

I'm extremely sorry for what you are going through!! It does suck when you're not wanted anymore in the relationship... *Big Hugs*

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