On the MOVE  

SxyCrazyCool 39F
633 posts
9/8/2006 4:06 pm

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11/13/2006 7:40 am

On the MOVE

*breathe in-------- breathe out**

Miss Last Minute is moving. Sunday I'm moving and I haven't even packed half of my shit yet!

Tomorrow 10am I have my Reiki II course. 7pm comes the guy I met on here for dinner and Sunday will be the big day. Moving.. the Big Get-To-Know=Who-Your-Real-Friends-Are-Test. Why is it always such a disappointment to find out that everyone is too lame to help?¿ Two years ago, when I moved back in with my parents I had exactly ONE friend helping me move my stuff. This time there's a bit more.. The guy I met on here will test his new big muscles Sunday.. and of course my Peruvian friend is there to help..
And Bobflop (Mr. Convertible) was about the only one who said yes without asking any questions (like: what floor is your new appartment on?)..

An old fb offered to help as well, but I'd feel too obliged accepting his help. I haven't seen him in almost a year and.. well he's still sorry that we don't meet up anymore so when i accept his help I'd be feeling that he'd expect 'something' in return. I know he doesn't.. he's said he doesn't (he was actually quite offended that I thought that way), but I can't help it. And then there's my colleague. The one who's job I am probably going to get. The one I have to pretend to that I don't have a clue what's going on, while (right under his nose) they're already teaching me what I need to know to do his job.. I already feel sooo bad about this, that accepting his help would make it much worse.
Then there's my lovely brother who surely did not offer any help. The one who didn't react to my cry for help at all this week. It's so good to know you can always count on your family!

Good. Well of course I was silly to hope for enthusiastic offerings to help. Carrying a couple of chairs and tables n stuffz is sooooooo much to ask.. but those are also the ones first in line to ask when the housewarming party will be. Mhmm well I don't very much feel like giving a housewarming.

Anyway.. Yeah, in a couple of weeks I'll probably have a new job this monday I shall hear if they want to give me the raise that I asked for. Today my boss already hinted that I will get what I asked for "Just wait for Human Resource to contact you.. you'll like what they'll have to tell you!".. Sooo keeping my fingers crossed!

Last night I spent the night with a friend of mine.. we were in bed together and I asked him what his One big wish would be if he'd find a Genie in a Bottle. Hahaha he'd wish that he'd always stay the Excellent Lover that he is today.. and after a couple more words that basically came down to the wish of not growing older. He could not imagine that life could get better than this.
I can't count the many times that I've thought that exact same thought. And still it does get better.. because I grow. I would never wish that I would not grow older. Maybe for my body to stay young, but my body isn't really all that at the moment.. Cleaning up my stuff I found pictures from when I was still my 'original' size and it amazed me how 'skinny' I was during the time I had a major complex about my (in retrospect non-existing) fatness!! At this moment I don't have that complex anymore. I mean. There's still insecureness about the way I look of course, but it is way out of proportion with the way I look and I used to look and all that..
Uhhh.. okay I don't think I'm being very coherent anymore.. I just wanted to say that I'm so happy to be me .. and that I love my life! And that I can't believe how excellently well everything is going for me!
The only thing that could make things even better would be someone to love.. But let's not push things eh?

I'm gonna go get some sleep and be well rested for the Reiki course tomorrow

Big Love!!


frangipanigal 46F
10406 posts
9/10/2006 5:14 am

I hate moving and I can SOOO relate to being Miss Last Minute everything!!

Sounds like you have some nice "helper" so I hope it goes well.

Do you know how nice it is to hear someone say that they are happy to be themselves!! Good on you!! One day, I hope for that too..

Frangi x

dutchpete 55M
563 posts
9/10/2006 6:11 am

No need for any insecurity about yr looks. It is balance with yr being yrself.

And hope your new spot will be shining with yr presence.

rm_vaihtelu1969 49M
1260 posts
9/12/2006 5:29 am

Moving is the best opportunity to find old memories and to get rid of extra stuff

Have fun babe!

-Vaihtelu1969 to spice you up-

rm_MarinaAngel 47M/44F
8 posts
9/28/2006 10:35 am

Kisses !!!

Hope to chat....soon


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