KISS MY ASS!!!! & FUCK OFF!!!!  

SweetDarlinAngel 41F
2088 posts
10/24/2005 2:49 am

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KISS MY ASS!!!! & FUCK OFF!!!!


So what constitutes a “bitch right” on this site? Gender? Is it popularity? Well, unfortunately for all of you, I don’t follow the rules of the blogging “trendy”. I have been offended and pissed off. So whether you wish to hear it or not, I am going to bitch. Now is your chance to leave if you don’t wish to know why because I am seriously fucking pissed off!!

I am engaged. I have a family and obligations to that family. If you don’t like that I am on this site to meet men (and possibly women) for sex then please GO AWAY! My fiancé is a woman. Please allow me to repeat that, my fiancé is a woman. So, I meet men (and possibly women) for “friends with benefit” relationships. I am neither a prostitute nor a slut. I am choosy about those that I meet and become friends with. Once we are friends, there is a chance, I REPEAT a chance, and it may go farther.

Now that I have made an abundantly clear definition of my purpose on this site I will continue with what has so blatantly pissed me off. I recently met a friend off this site. He and I hit it off quite well I thought. Had a great time. Spent a wonderful evening together. Yet, I have found a posting on his site alluding to the fact that I don’t have time to be his friend. Making it sound as though I have “gone back to my family” and left him high and dry.
HELLO!!!!!!!!!! My fiancé and my children and career will always come before anything on this site. I must provide a loving environment for my children. I must provide a stable income and home for my family. My fiancé has NO IDEA about anything that I do on this site and that is my problem. My closest friends on this site no why, and right now, it is for the best. My personal romantic problems are my own, and I choose not to involve my online friends and fellow bloggers in that world. I feel that it is something I must deal with on my own.

Considering I have never made any promises of long term relationships to anyone on this site, I feel that this person is wrong his post. His post hurt my feelings. He made me cry. How unfair of him to make reference to something when there was never any question that my loyalties were to my family. Am I being sensitive? I don’t care! I have never lied or lead anyone on to believe there was more than friendship here from me. I spent a lot of money for the trip to see him. I lied to my family to see him. I drove for more than 3 hours to see him. Now, there is snidely hidden guilt trip left in his post regarding my lack of communication? WTF?!?!

There is a part of me that hopes he finds his way here, much as I found my way across his post. I hope he reads my thoughts and storms away. After reading his I did. Actually, I read his post and the 32 comments that were posted on it as well before leaving. I was pissed off at him. Pissed off at him for the post because of how unfair and one sided it was. It must be nice to be one of the most popular bloggers on this site and have so many people pop up to give moral support for such a heartless woman. I didn’t go up there to fuck and go home. Since being back, I have posted more to his site than any of my other friends, simply because of the time we spent together. Now, I feel like a moron. Pardon me for wasting so much of my preciously limited time. Obviously I should use more wisely.

I am struggling to maintain my A-F-F friendships since my promotion, my online time is significantly limited and now I am dealing with some fucked up guilt trip over an FWB sex trip that was good but not life-altering from someone who has no right to judge me considering the time and money I spent just to make the meeting happen! So where does this leave my bitch fest? With a seriously bitter taste in my mouth, and one really really tweaked halo!

This “Sweet Darlin Angel” is feeling much more like “Vicious Tart Devil” right now.

I can say that I am perched on the edge of my seat, fuming pissed. Tapping my feet wondering if I should call in my “professional assistance” that I was offered the moment that I returned back from this trip. Do I want to be a vindictive bitch? The thought has crossed my mind…

As a side note to a worried friend … not to worry, the phone call was from me. I hung up because I was trying to program my new office phone. I’ll call you later. Thanks for looking out for me babe. 

Another side note to a possible “vindictive bitch” friend … I may call on your help. But not yet … I’m not ready right now.

~SDA … not feeling so much like SDA …

~Angel


TheQuietGuy2005 56M
2386 posts
10/24/2005 3:47 am

Nothing wrong with becoming Vicious Tart Devil every now and then but I wouldn't recommend the move to vindictive bitch. Revenge may be sweet in the short term but as far as I'm concerned it leaves a sour aftertaste that lasts a looooong time. Revenge belittles us - you're better than that.

Or maybe I'm just a wimp ...


nightstalker172 38M
1258 posts
10/24/2005 4:05 am

when half the title is cursing you know the post must be a good read.

I dont blaim you for your anger....if you made it clear to him that you had a family etc...and that it was just a fling he shouldnt be zeroing you out like that...thats BS....

Now dont get mad at me for saying this but I think its alittle sad that your fiance is kept in the dark...I mean if you have an open relationship thats good more power to you but if you are going behind her back and sleeping with other people then I would feel bad for her. I know that if my girl did that to me I would be hurt if I ever found out...Now I dont know you and Im not judging you at all...I just simply had to say something about that...I wish you luck with that but if you plan on getting married (if allowed that is I know same sex marriages are frowned on in most states still) I would hope you wouldnt keep something like this from her...I dont think its healthy for a good stable relationship between 2 people...these are just my thoughts. Because I am the way I am I just couldnt sit here and not comment on that...I know its none of my bees wax but you did choose to share....anyway...

This guy that has been talking smack ( I like that term smack )....He sounds like a guy who might belong on my list...just make a visit to my blog and say the word and I will put him up...and in the words of Lenor00 Its on like Donkey Bitchs


nightstalker172 38M
1258 posts
10/24/2005 4:06 am

Damnit I missspelled her handle lenore00


Efilnikufecin69 48M

10/24/2005 5:35 am

Come down off your soapbox SDA and don't let some idiot ruin your day! You just do what you think is right and don't worry about what someone else says. If they start making demands, or giving you ultimatums, then they are DEFINATELY NOT worth your time! Believe me! My babydoll is going through the same shit right now. E69

Love and kisses{=}

Efilnikufecin69 and saintlianna


bigfurrybear 43M

10/24/2005 7:31 am

Every once in a while you will come across assholes like this and there is nothing wrong with venting some serious anger towards him. If you ever happen to read my little blog you will notice a lot of stories about the people I meet. None of those stories are posted without the permission of the friend. I also try very hard to present the stories in a respectful and fun manner. All my friends also know that if they see something in my blog about them they don't like they can tell me and it will be gone.

I can relate to you as well in that I have been married for 9 years, have been on AdultFriendFinder for almost 3 months now, and my wife has no idea. She is not ready and would not be able to handle it right now if I told her. Now people can judge me how they want, and I do have my reasons for why I am on here and don't tell her, but I choose not to discuss them in a public forum. If anyone wants to know they can ask me and I will tell them all about it.

I am sorry about this disrespectful piece of trash and I hope you don't let him ruin the rest of your AdultFriendFinder experience. I also want to tell you congrats on the engagement and I truly hope it works out for you and brings you happiness.

Also, make sure you leave some time for play. Working is important, but so is a little play time.


beewulf9 39M

10/24/2005 8:38 am

Angel, it sounds like you are in a difficult position. May that position become less so.


digdug41 50M

10/24/2005 8:58 am

why is AZ trippin like that yeah you didnt mention his name but I did SO WHAT! we'll talk sda and I'll tell you my feeling then because its not polite to bring anything negative to someone elses house

roaming the cyber streets of blogland


88MARS 43M  
17 posts
10/24/2005 8:49 pm

"Don't worry, Be happy" That's the name of one of my favorite songs. Don't let idots bring you down and let negativity slide off your back. Some guys are still stuck in grade school & have not learned to grow up. Hmph...well any way forget him and continue to have fun any way you want it.


warmandsexy52 66M
13164 posts
10/25/2005 6:51 am

Angel, it really saddens me to see you hurt like this. You have always been very clear and open about who you are and what you're about. Many of us in blogland balance our personal lives with the adventures we seek with those who inspire us, switch on something within us and more besides, and that is an area we must respect about each other. Angels are creatures of the sky. They are allowed to be mercurial in expressing who they are and what stirs them. No worry in venting, my sweet. I'm so sorry that all of this has happened to you. It shouldn't have done.

*Hugs & More*

~Warm


SweetDarlinAngel 41F
2996 posts
10/25/2005 9:48 pm

TheQuiteGuy2005 I think that after our small talk in the chat room, you are right. Vindictive is not my style. I was/am hurt and will let this go as it is. I vented. I've said enough. Thank you for setting me back on the right track.

nightstalker172 I understand your point of view where my fiance is concerned, but we are not going to get into that. Perhaps if you and I become friends at some point you will have the opportunity to become privvy to that info, I don't wish to burden others with my "home" life problems. As I said above, they are my own and I try to wrok them out as best as I can. But I appreciate and understand your feelings on the matter. Thank you.

Efilnikufecin69 SDA shakes off attitude and steps carefully down from soap box so that she is certain not to trip... Thank you, I forget sometimes that there are better ways to throw a fit than by standing on a poor innocent soap box. I hope that whoever else is going through this is able to get it straightened out in due time. Please help her as well, the situation sucks!

bigfurrybear wow, thanks for sharing your side of things. It helps me to see that I am not the only one out here with my life in this situation, and that I am not such a horrid person. Thank you.

frnds4play I am seeing that perhaps revenge isn't my style. Never was really. But I was upset and hurt. It's nice to see that even after I throw a fit, there are still nice people like all of you to stop by with a few kind words of encouragement.

beewulf9 what else could I say but ... thank you ...

digdug41 you know Digs, it's why I love ys babe!

88Mars Hopefully a heartfelt apology in a public forum for standing you up on will make up for that Friday, I thought that this "genlteman" was worth the trip and even the begging of forgiveness I'd have do with you MARS. As I can see now, a true gentleman has still passed by blog and left a message of encouragement and kind words even after such a rude display on my part. You are always understanding, always sweet, always kind. Always wonderful. So many things a girl is looking for. I hope that the women on this site see you for the treasure that you are. We will get together again very soon. Perhaps, I should have made a better effort to stop by after my return home that weekend. Thank you for being so sweet. Thank you for saying such nice things today despite everything.

warmandsexy52 Words of wisdom from so far away... thank you. You always seem to know just what to say.

goddessofbitches though you didn't post, thank you so much for your help. your phone conversation and advice. It meant the world to me. But I'm sure you already knew that...

Love to you all,
~SDA

~Angel


GleesFlakyShawl 51M
1620 posts
10/26/2005 6:52 am

well, angel, maybe its cuz us men are not ready for "no string sex"....lol

now seriously, angel, if ur clear with ur concience, thats all that matters


beewulf9 39M

10/27/2005 12:52 pm

Reading your replies to everyone, your statements seem to be more relaxed and calm. I will take that as a good sign. One of my many wishes are that you, and your family are blessed- may peace, love and joy be upon you.


demonicsexkitten 43F
10689 posts
10/28/2005 2:57 am

SDA: i realize this is a couple days old now... hopefully you're not angry anymore. But i would think it has to do with self esteem. i could be wrong of course... you've met him in real, and know his personality better. I just know, having met somebody and it seemed great, then never hearing from him again... when i valued the guy as a friend and wanted to keep that friendship (regardless of benefits)... it just kinda sticks, and you start worrying, and wondering, and then questioning, and it just digs in somehow. I think he was truly just trying to understand it... when you don't hear back afterwards, you kinda wonder if it was just a game to the other person. Which isn't bad if that's the agreement going in. I do'nt think i ever replied to his post, but i talked with him in IM a long time after he left it. I pointed out about your fiancee, and family, as i felt that had more to do with his not hearing back than anything.


rm_EE407 42F
3903 posts
10/29/2005 5:05 am

Hunz, Vent, bitch get it out... and then move on and forget him but learn from the experience...

Hugz E.


SweetDarlinAngel 41F
2996 posts
11/4/2005 6:30 pm

dz2502 A guy not ready for it? Perhaps in this case, you may be right. He is a very sensitive and gentlemanly fellow. I thought (and still think) a very good friend as well.

beewulf9 thank you, I have a calmed a bit. Warm thoughts and posts from people like you helped, as did two very good friends. They both helped me see the smarter side of things. Though they both had very different opinions on how I should handle it. I am ETERNALLY thankful. Love to you both Digdug41 and Goddessofbitches!

demonicsexkitten thank you for the insight into his side of things. That helps. I was hurt. But his friendship meant a lot to me. Still does in fact. Thank you

EE407 Venting complete. Thanks for listening. Good ears are hard to find!

Sprocket7472 Oooohhhh, spanking was offered? on such a cute behind... Where is jet pack and a flight plan to Washington when I need one? That would have really done the trick! So, if I turn you on when I mad, I wonder how you'd feel about me when I was really sexually frustrated? Makes you stop and think, doesn't it? <giggles>

~SDA

~Angel


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