A hand to hold.....  

SuzieQ4U60 62F
283 posts
8/6/2006 4:41 pm

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8/9/2006 8:18 pm

A hand to hold.....


Faith is the hand
to hold
when we
lose our way


How many times have you felt completely lost? Whether it is in a strange store, city, or in your own life and mind.

Once, when I was about 10, we went to the Virginia State fair... my family. It was soooo terribly crowded, and was before the times when you were afraid to go places like that for fear of being robbed, shot or stabbed. As we walked along, I stopped for a brief moment, to look at something, and when I looked up, I saw noone I knew. I walked and walked....looking for my dad. I must have walked 30 minutes...and folks, 30 minutes to an 10 year old is a long time. Finally, I saw him, and I ran to him and after he put his arms around me and hugged me, it was then I cried and felt more relief that I had ever felt in my short life. How comforting it was to see my daddy walking towards me. I can close my eyes and still see it. And it still brings tears to my eyes and a lump to my throat.

My dad is, even now, very concerned about me... he worries about me. He knows I am alone, and have been hurt. He tells me, in his dad way, how he can't imagine the men here in Roanoke not seeing what a good looking woman I am...lol
and what they are missing in not wanting me to be with them. I tell him, "Dad, I'll find the right one, one of these days." And I know I will.

I have already been looking....walking, seeking now...truly wanting to find him, for about 3 years. I caught a glimpse of one or two, thinking 'there he is' only to discover I was wrong. But I'll know.... I will recognize him. I will look up, and finally, I will see him. He will be walking towards me. And when he puts his arms around me and hugs me, I will cry and feel more relief than I have ever felt in my long life, and it will be then, that I will know.....

I am

home.

And I have found who it is I have been searching for, all my life.

Yes, I will finally

be

home.


amoldenough 71F
16436 posts
8/6/2006 8:48 pm

suz, that was a beautiful piece of writing, right from the heart. I have been feeling lost myself for a long time now. I feel that I need to find myself before I can look for someone to find me. It may not ever happen. After all, I'm no spring chick any more. One of my goals is to become more optimistic, like I used to be. Not the pessimist that I feel I have become.

"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."


SuzieQ4U60 62F

8/6/2006 9:11 pm

Am,

I know what you mean about finding yourself. Sometimes I am not sure who I am anymore. For so long I was "his" wife and now, sometimes, I feel like I am noone.


amoldenough 71F
16436 posts
8/7/2006 6:54 pm

Girl, we have to talk more!

"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."


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