I must be crazy  

SquirtinCummer 52F
67 posts
7/12/2006 9:26 am

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7/30/2006 5:50 pm

I must be crazy

3 yrs ago, I dated this guy & was lead to believe that it was going somewhere, then my life changed - for the better - big promotion with work, tons more money, had to move to the big city.

Well, thinking there was something happening in the relationship, I went out to surprise him one evening, I was the one surprised. Around 3 am in he comes with another woman.

Well that relationship went somewhere - they lived to gether for almost 2 yrs, and I walked away feeling rejected & used.

We stayed friends, and then one day, about 5 months ago, I get a call at 1am from him, teling me he realized he was an asshole to me & apologizing.

So, stupid me here I am again, seeing him at least once a month, listening to his plans for the future, getting close to his kids again and realizing that a FWB relationship isn't going to do it for me this time.

And I told him as much. I told him that I am not willing to go through all this again to watch him move in with someone else, that I refuse to be left feeling rejected and used AGAIN.

I should cut my losses & run - far, far away from him, but now I have another complication. I made a promise to 2 of his kids, and I keep my promises.

So, in 2 weeks I will find myself out there again. And of course, if I am there, I will want to spend time with him, both in and out of bed.

Can I be strong enough to keep a distance, can I be strong enough to stick to my guns? I don't know, but I am going to try.

gmandave1964 53M

7/12/2006 2:55 pm

There is much truth in the old saying: Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. For me, I am always cautious of someone who dumps me for someone else and then comes back saying they made a mistake. This should hold very true if they cheated on ya. Additionally, it always makes me wonder if they are just trying to find a comfort zone to fill the lonely void between relationships. Plus, there is the whole great sex thing to overcome. I can definitely understand being confused. Nonetheless, my advice comes from Monety Python and the Holy Grail: "Run away, run away, run away." Anyhow, that's my two cents.


ebandit_64 53M

7/13/2006 5:57 pm

I see your having second and third thoughts. It doesn't matter how good the sex is, it's not worth having another broken heart. You fargave him for his infidelity, but you can't forget it. History repeats itself, if we do not learn from History, we are destined to fail.


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