Don't go there  

SoljerBlu 40M
134 posts
2/20/2006 11:40 pm

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7/11/2006 8:49 pm

Don't go there

I pull a photo from '69, '75, '83, '90, '98, '02, today....

and I put them down with a sadness that almost exceeds my joy of seeing them today.

The joy is simply that I see them today... the sadness is that I see all the lost promise of each of them... and knowing that I should have been better in each of them.

I see the other people I let down with my false promises.. lost in idiocies beyond comprehension.

I see the faces smiling at a man who let them down with his weaknesses and vices.

I see them with eyes that are the alone in ever seing them.

I see the edges curling inward toward the flames that consume them.

I see that I should take no more photos...

I see I need more Zanax, prozac... and sleep..

which comes so hard and .......

mood.. black as my soul...

I see them curling at the edges in the flames that consume them

I see the ashes of my life waft in

moonlightphoenix 46F
6508 posts
2/23/2006 7:28 am

Wow. Powerfully eloquent. Beautifully painful.

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