AMothers Decision  

SinfullySpoiled 51F
8 posts
3/27/2006 4:51 am
AMothers Decision

His drunken body on top of mine.
Sweaty and heavy,I cant breath..
Mouth open,eyes closed doing to me what he wanted, as slob drips on my chest.
I lay there lost ..feeling used and toyed with .
I left myself before I got sick.
Excaping to my dark place ,where there was no light. It made things easier to except..He couldnt see my tears fall,not that he would of even noticed anyways for he was intoxicated.
I dont want to feel anything .
I dont want to even be here,but i feel his hands ,his smell ,his breath,the scent of alcohol reeked from his body.
It got easier as I sunk deeper inside myself.
I want out,but he's my boys father and they love him.
Can I take him from them?
Will they undertstand my reasons and one day find it in their hearts to forgive me and know it was for them that we left.

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