I think too much  

SincinnatiHO 38M
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3/11/2006 10:21 pm

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3/21/2006 4:02 pm

I think too much

I find that the more I think about stuff, the more stuff I think about...I'm a very analytical thinker & have issues letting go of things till I figure them out.

I've been dwelling on my bicuriousity lately. While I'm utilizing this site to explore my curiousity, I am first & foremost a fan of women. I'll refrain from expounding into the reasons as this wouldn't be on point with this post.

I can't say that I've ever looked at a man and thought, god he's hot, or man I'd like to make out with him. Don't get me wrong, I've admired a mans body & attributes, but not the same as I have a woman. My interests are normally peaked when I'm horny, and by the site of a hard cock. Why does a large hard cock interest me? Have I trained myself by watching porn too much? I enjoy female on female, but am more of a fan of porn with men involved. How come after I cum when utilizing non-traditional material, I have a bit of a feeling of regret - I think that these feelings stem from my societally engineered predisposition (look at the big words I use :lol to be heterosexual & that I should be ashamed of these feelings. But what if its something else?

I have in the past taken home some ladies that seemed to be, umm...nice way to put...lower quality than I'd normally settle for. But on the contrary, I don't think I'd ever hook up with a guy who is of lesser quality than I'd expect. Is this a normal thought of someone exploring their sexuality? That you'd only fool around with someone of the same sex if they were drop dead gorgeous? Then when you get some experiences under your belt that changes?

I think the thing i'm most attracted to is the cock - and this site is not helping any. I for some reason love the look of a large lubed up cock being stroked and they are all over on here. Overall they are ugly things, but something about them is captivating. Maybe its the fact that they are no holds bar/no deceptions - when its horny, its obvious, when its satisfied, its obvious. Simple to work, endless possibilities. Maybe its the contrast to a pussy? Hard vs. soft, penetrated vs. penetrating, pleasure giving vs. pleasure receiving (face it, unfortunately we have more control - I blow my load and loose my hardon, ain't no fuckin going on). Maybe its the perceived role reversals - dominance and all that jazz. Getting fucked vs. fucking someone - I've been fucked by a lady before, road me under the matress, but I just can't imagine it being close to the feeling of getting fucked in the ass. Something about loosing the control in the situation.

I think for this reason I find shemales attractive - best of both worlds, right - close as getting my cake & eating it too. I can have a hottie girlfriend and still have another cock to play with. But I think even in that situation I would long for the pu -

libgemOH 57M/53F

3/14/2006 3:25 am

Hey sin, wanted to stop by and thank you for visiting my place (blog). The topic you speak of here takes a lot of courage for a man to admit and now that you have admitted it, I hope you can find what you are looking for. I am attracted to both men and women and as a bisexual woman, I find that I am much more picky of my same sex partners than OSP's. Hope I helped some -B

SincinnatiHO 38M

3/14/2006 4:02 pm

Def helped some - thanks for swinging in. I figure this is one of the best places to explore my thoughts with least amount of repercussions and/or best likelihood of others sharing in the same boat.

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