The Meaning of Sex  

SinEnigma 41M
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6/11/2006 2:43 pm

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The Meaning of Sex

It's been almost 2 years since I've had sex. Hell of a statement right? Especially from a member of this site. Zip, zilch, nada. Not even a "baby can I just stick the head in". I know...I know. Now understand when I say no sex, I'm using the definition from the Merriam-Webster-Clinton Unabridged edition. No, I did NOT have sex with that woman but I did give some pretty good head to one of my favorite women a couple of nights ago (damn she's delicious).

Now one may ask what good reason would someone in there right mind have for giving up one of the greatest pleasures on God's green earth. To be honest, I don't know if I have one. At some point in my journey into manhood, sex lost it's meaning to me. sex changed from a physical expression of how I felt about my Ms. Wonderful to something that if expressed through words would sound somehting like "you look like just the right woman to deposit some sperm in tonight". My conscious wouldn't allow me to accept that as my reality so I decided that abstinence would get me back on the straight and narrow.

Has it worked? Kinda sorta partially. The older you get the better you become at putting things into perspective. One thing I've learned through growth is that we have the ability to define a many of things for what they mean to us and us alone. We don't have to live by society's implicit judgemental views. I mean geesh, how boring is that. At some point I realized that sex wasn't about love and for the most part, not even about feelings and emotions. Meaningless sex isnt without meaning at all. It's simply a search for pleasure. And I've started my search again.

What does a good fuck mean to me today? Getting slow head from the blonde that stared at me half the night becuase I was the stranger in the group.

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