Song of My Mother  

Seriously_Real 49M
1458 posts
5/14/2006 2:14 pm

Last Read:
5/16/2006 5:09 am

Song of My Mother

I am a woman, now.
Head on I rush in quest of dusty meaning
Brandished wildly, by all who seek the sage
Proclaim new ideals, but inwardly my leaning
Is toward the wrinkled wise.
And on the stage of my rebirth,
I satirize my life.
I have suffered, loved, and nourished hate
Dreamed me sophisticate, then wife
And in work I have piloted my fate
I see now a man, a fibrous strength of being
That I a hapless wanderer never knew
But wanted. And from the darken concerns
I emerge, to lean upon your sapience
I have changed, I pause quietly to reflect.
Then lift my eyes to meet darker ones.
I am a woman. I lean, but stand erect.


Author: Unknown
~October 1, 1968.


This goes with the post below. I hope she knows I have this and think of her on this day.

--Seriously



rm_truedom2 57M
663 posts
5/14/2006 2:33 pm

.....at a loss for words, but understanding.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:37 am:
Thanks, True.

absolutelynormal 57F
6563 posts
5/14/2006 2:43 pm

(((SR)))


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:37 am:
I like hugs...

ArtisticTwist75 42F
2505 posts
5/14/2006 3:05 pm

Monster Hugs! Wishing you out of your funk soon...

Artistic


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:38 am:
Funk complete. Captain Sunshine has returned....thanks Arty.

rm_gerson42 53M
2419 posts
5/14/2006 3:32 pm

I have now read that through at least 5 times, with each, a deeper and larger story appears. It's almost as if each word is placed with precise purpose.I emerge, to lean upon your sapience.Incredible. Thank you for trusting us with this.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:39 am:
Funny, but the idea of trusting this to people I've never met never crossed my mind. Such is the love I have for you all, and feel FROM you all....nothing else like that, either. Thanks, G.

Phuc_Buddy 47M

5/14/2006 3:52 pm

I read the first time and as I am prone to do I read it backwards and it takes on a totally unique meaning. Awesome sentiment. Thank you!


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:39 am:
Thanks, PB. I hadn't considered that....it is very interesting that way, huh?

wickedeasy 68F  
31332 posts
5/14/2006 3:52 pm

as the willow bends but does not break

You cannot conceive the many without the one.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:40 am:
I am sure of that. And the weeping, too. Thanks, Easy.

TheRealThing655 49F
9558 posts
5/14/2006 4:15 pm

Wow. That is something to read over and over. You are right- there are no coincidences. You were meant to have that.
Thank you for sharing.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:40 am:
She left it behind for me so I would know. I'm so glad she did.

southrnpeach333 52F

5/14/2006 5:18 pm

And now we know from where your words spring.....

you have recieved two gifts in your life...the gift of this poetic nature and the nurture in whose hands she placed you.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:41 am:
I suppose even when they take them away in baskets, the apple initially doesn't fall from the tree, huh? Yeah, I had the same thought.

EroticaXTC 51F

5/14/2006 5:38 pm

thank you for sharing all of this with us!
It is touching to read, words cannot full describe my sentiments...
kudos my friend


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:42 am:
Thanks, XTC. It was quite an experience transferring her words on paper to pixels in the screen....thanks for being there.

rm_1hotwahine 64F
21091 posts
5/14/2006 5:50 pm

This is my third time here and I still have not come up with anything to say that could even begin to do justice to these two posts.

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:43 am:
I know what you mean. Thank you.

rm_1hotwahine 64F
21091 posts
5/14/2006 5:51 pm

Here's a bit of Wahine Understatement...
I think the new blog title is a keeper, yeah?

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:43 am:
I was wondering if anyone would notice. You did.

Duh.

I'm glad you're you.

seek_u_topia 52M

5/14/2006 6:28 pm

no coincidences...i'm with you brother...


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:44 am:
Thanks, Utop. Not a coincidence to be found...

rm_LoyalCumpany 47M
3204 posts
5/14/2006 7:11 pm

I was trying to stay away from the blogs today, and keep low, but....

Thunbs up.

I am JoJo the Circus Boy!


sensually_4ever 43M/F

5/14/2006 7:35 pm

*sighs*


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:44 am:
*sighs with sens*

rm_mzbitch2u 48F
63 posts
5/14/2006 8:19 pm

what a wonderful thing for her to leave u.......maybe its time u found her and thanked her in person.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:46 am:
I've considered that. I don't know if I am ready for that, and truth be told, I would have to know she was ready, too. I am a very, very, VERY big believer that it is not up to me, or up to her, either, to intrude upon the other's life unannounced. But if it was right, then I would. Probably.

Smooth_GaL 35F  
424 posts
5/14/2006 11:35 pm

It's nice and poetic... It's great that she left it for you *****Huggies*****

{=}Smooth{=}


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:46 am:
Thank you, Smooth. I kinda like it, too.

ArgosPlumyKooky 46F
3902 posts
5/14/2006 11:47 pm

"I satirize my life" seriously, how beautiful is that? wow


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:47 am:
thank you, snatch. From you that mean ALOT.

redlipsprincess
(Princess Lips)
53F

5/15/2006 1:50 am

I'm sure she thinks of you as well...

*hugs*

TTFN


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:48 am:
I would like to think so. And knowing just what I do know, I cannot imagine that she does not. Okay, now you made me cry again....

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
5/15/2006 3:16 am

There really aren't words for this.....
Honored that you would choose to share it here, with us.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:48 am:
Thank you, C. Just knowing you're there to read it makes me happy.

rm_corezon 54F
3376 posts
5/15/2006 6:54 am

Tremendous.

I read this yesterday but really couldn't decide what to say. I know I post things that are difficult for people to know how to respond to; and yet, I long for someone else's insight. Another mind. Just to know that I touched someone, that someone looked in for a moment.

The poem brings several things to mind, quite a few about the person that she was then, hormones swinging, knowing that she was giving her baby away, a decision she could never take back. What else could she give you worth having that would be worth anything to you at all?

She did leave her mark on you in more than one way, didn't she? Wow. I know that sharing this is a milestone for you. I hope that it brings you peace and clarity. I wonder if she ever really thought it would be saved and placed in your hands when you were old enough to read it. I wonder how old you were when your parents gave that to you, and I wonder indeed how she changed.


Seriously_Real replies on 5/15/2006 11:51 am:
Left her mark on me? Oh, I'm just now beginning to see how much. Publishing this was a real experience, as I said above. Just the physical act of typing her words from the paper to the screen was emotional. I must have dhecked and double-checked every word, every line. I fought the urge to "improve" it with a tense, or a word choice, here or there --- but of course could not. She was a mere 20 years old. I can promise you I could not write like that when I was 20.

She intended it for me because it was in my file if I ever inquired. My parents have never seen it. And the changes she underwent....again, I cannot even comprehend it.

But all I am and will ever be is due to her courage. Thank you for your heart and words, corezon...

sexyariesgirl 59F

5/15/2006 3:08 pm

No words here....just feelings.

Power To FOK


rm_truedom2 57M
663 posts
5/16/2006 2:28 am

I was thinking of this and I remembered (almost)a quote that applied, to both you and her. I thought it was from Publius Syrus, but I couldn't find it. I started to obsess about it and had to go looking once more...I found it..it was from Pliny the Elder;

True Glory Consists in Doing What Deserves to Be Written;
In Writing What Deserves to Be Read.


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