Thank you for the concern shown for my folks  

Sailor376 64M
953 posts
8/24/2006 10:43 pm

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8/28/2006 4:41 pm

Thank you for the concern shown for my folks

Since the morning that I returned home to much horrifying news and the past ten days of angst, I have barely gone to work, and when I did I barely was effective. I owe much to many new friends here.

I would like to say , Thank you.

My Father seems to be mending after bypass surgery. That is in Michigan. In Florida, my step father is still bleeding 14 days after surgery to clear carotid blockages. But upon close questioning, it sounds to me like a little drainage may be a good thing. Don't, tell my Mother that I said that. My step Father hasn't sounded this good in the last 5 years. Amazing what a little oxygen can do for you. Amazing. My mother is and will be my concern. Not good. No details but I am going down for another visit two weeks from now. And as often as I can beyond that. For my Christmas present this year I just want her to be there. And that may be a cruelly selfish wish. I apologize.

The various definitions of love have been bombarding me lately. Lust soaked. Familial. Of sunsets and nature's beauties. Art, music, why tears are good or bad. Love for my children. Love of friends. Such a wealth, and wealth is so appropriate word here, wealth of friends in my 'real' world and my new 'ereal' world equally.

I am rich. Certainly not by the number of dollars or drachma. lol But yes, by the number and quality of friends new and old. I am rich and because of the difficulties, I know it.

Art. Ripples in the pond. Love of and from someone now gone. Ripples in the pond. Wavelets lapping at my ankles. Telling me things, reassuring me. Family love of parent of children. more ripples and more because of freshness. Being taught to be gentle and real by someone just met. more ripples.
ripples that fade with time. Ripples that are felt and remembered when I so , so need them. Friends gone forty years that I never wept for. All ephemeral. Absolutely without substance. Think of it! We are all here for something that is no thing, not a thing, can't be weighed, packaged, sold. (Well may be the last one.)

The very definition of 'art' must be the transmission of emotion from one to another. Anger, love, awe, respect, elation, angst. I have more than heard these things in opera,, I HAVE FELT THEM.. Carved air. The artist one hundred feet or one hundred meters away and I have wept. I still shake at the beauty of the 'Venus di Milo' twenty five years later. And a marble Lady unearthed in Pompei. So soft and lovely and warm that I could imagine the she and love her. In marble! And it all will fade and erode and be gone one day exactly as if she were carved of ice or snow and so lovely only until the sun shown upon her.

Ephemeral. Just as we are.

The ripples in the pond will outlast us all. And if I am learning something then let it be that.

I have natal memories, soft and warm and strawberry colored light. I remember being born. I hope my eyes will be open through the next door.I hope that my loved ones passings will be gentle and sweet. all art. all love. ripples in the pond.


ShyWhisper2006 54F
15175 posts
8/25/2006 3:20 am

Wow...wonderful post...and such thoughts....It is not selfish to want a loved one to can it be...if it not for them...we would not be selfish...I allow you to be.
I hope that the ripples that you cause to touch others...returns to you...and gently reminds you...that you are special and deserving of such wealth that you mentioned. *smiles*
I am glad to hear of your father and your step- father...and my thoughts for you and your mother...*hugs*

Sailor376 replies on 8/25/2006 6:39 am:
Thank you ,Shy. The cruel part is that I know the next stage for my mother will bring pain, buckets of it, possibly unmanageable. I hope it does not progress in that direction. We will see.
Bought a couple of plane tickets last night and I may just start a monthly 'commute'. Good Idea. Thanks. We'll credit you with that one.
Talk to you soon.

__Huntress__ 56M/59F

8/25/2006 3:54 am

WoW ... what a wonderful thing to read first thing in the morning ... hugs and kisses for you and "mom" !


Sailor376 replies on 8/25/2006 6:41 am:
Thank you, Huntress. And your comment was a wonderful thing to read this morning. Good start to a day.

florallei 100F

8/25/2006 3:56 pm

Alright Sailor, am convinced you know how to make love with those sweet what a lucky woman your wife is...
TY for saying it in such a profound and insightful note. Very beautiful indeed, my dear Sailor...

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