I'm Not Superwoman!  

RoyalPurpleRose 53F
307 posts
4/19/2006 10:54 pm

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4/26/2006 6:36 am

I'm Not Superwoman!

I'm struggling here. I feel like I'm at the bottom of a mountain of sand. I've been told that I need to move this mountain of sand, 50 yds over there. And I was only given a tea cup to do it with.

I have two daughters. The oldest is 17 and the youngest is 14. I love them so much. The oldest was involved with a boy. I knew when I met him, that it would be a bad thing. I'm so sorry that I was correct in my thinking. My baby is so messed up because of the SOB. My youngest has witnessed things, forced to keep secrets that have torn her up, and made her grow up too fast.

Through all of this (and it all began almost a year ago), I have been able to come here ... to Blogland. I have found friends. I have found escape. I have found solace. I have been inspired. I have laughed so hard I cried, and cried until I laughed. I come here when I need to smile. Not much smiling now. I hate this BLUE feeling.

This journey is not even close to the end. It's going to be a very long process, and the healing even longer. I pray God will help all of us heal. I pray God will take care of the sickness that has infested us.

I have not posted very much lately. And my future posts will probably be sporadic. I will try to post when I have some inspiration or thought I want to share. I will try to read the thoughts of others ... comment where I can.

Thank you Friends. I can't give more information than that. Will you say a prayer for me?

~Kisses, RPR

angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
4/20/2006 1:49 am

RPR....I will say a prayer for you! Even as we speak. I raised two daughters....and of course, my imagination is running wild with things that happened even with my girls. But just know that we are here....that we are your friends....and that we are praying. Whenever you can pop in and say hi....we will be happy. And if you need anything....send me a message.

ArgosPlumyKooky 46F
3902 posts
4/20/2006 6:21 am

difficult this raising of children. . .if only we could fill them up with our life experiences so they would not have to be hurt through their own. . .

digdug41 50M

4/22/2006 7:44 am

hey rose I dont know exactly what happened but I hope you are able to get through it notunder or around but through it I am heading into unchartered waters in regards to my kids my oldest is the same age as your youngest and he hits a public high school come september and I am just praying he will be alright you hang in there rose and I'll cya when you pop up on my blog luv cya

roaming the cyber streets of blogland

TrueTxGtlman 54M

4/22/2006 10:32 am

Everything happens for a reason and what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. From what I know you will be one strong babe when it all is over. SMCHES


Whispersoftly5 53F
15176 posts
4/23/2006 3:31 pm

Aw, I'm so sorry to read this - to read your hurt. You are for sure in my thoughts.


crazygurl2xx 58F

4/24/2006 7:38 pm

hugs. i know that anything that hurts my child hurts me too. you are in my prayers.

rm_titsandtires 53M/42F
3656 posts
4/25/2006 3:12 am

In my prayers indeed RPR. Just remember that you have plenty of blog friend sto bounce things off of. We'll all be here to help in any way we can.


RoyalPurpleRose 53F

4/25/2006 7:39 am

<--- crying softly. To each of you ... angelofmercy5, snatchmatch71, mzhunyhole, digdug41, TrueTxGtlman, whispersoftly5, crazygurl2xx, titsandtires ... THANK YOU!

Just knowing that I can come here ... to friends like you ... even if we never meet ... you mean the world to me. The more I discover, the more I will need to lean on you, and channel my feelings in this blog. Thank you for your shoulders, when I need them so badly.


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