Father's Day  

RedheadedMedStd 35F
1734 posts
6/18/2006 12:21 pm

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Father's Day

There are a million things I could be doing today, since my Dad is previously engaged on Father's Day and I spent all day with the fam yesterday.

One thing I thought about though was Keegan. He is celebrating his first holiday ever and I don't get to be there. I am sure that they are thrilled that he is there and that he is a part of their day, but part of me wants to scoop him up and bring him home with me.

My sister and I along with another family's daughters, did a BBQ for our families yesterday. We were in Heinen's which is a fancy-schmancy grocery store in my hometown and I saw a little boy who looked just like him. I saw Mom and Grandma and he was very young, not more than a few weeks old. I almost burst into tears. Right there in the grocery store! I can't tell you why I was so emotional at that particular moment, nor can I tell you why that little boy reminded me so much of him, but he did.

If we lived in a perfect world, I'd get to see him. He'd be down the street and I could walk over there and babysit whenever. That way I could still see him. He'd squeal when I came in cause he recognizes me and he would hold out his arms and whimper until I picked him up and held him close. He would smell just like baby powder. I know it's crazy, but he feels like he is my kid. I mean in some ways he always will be, I am his birthmom, but I just wish he was closer by.

I miss him and his big blue eyes.


frangipanigal 46F
10406 posts
6/18/2006 5:43 pm

Kisses and big hugs fo you from Little Frangi and I.

Frangi xx

rm_agathon12 47M
1311 posts
6/18/2006 6:15 pm

Yes, you are; you will always be and no one can take that away from you. You've also given an infertile couple something for which they will be eternally grateful. I know it hurts but take that with you as well. He will be surrounded by love. In this dark, cold world he has won the lottery, thanks to you.

PrincessKarma 44F
6188 posts
6/18/2006 8:14 pm

Awww, sweetie... *HUG* it's ok, cry if you need to *offers shoulder with super-absorbent shoulder pads* You're a beautiful, generous person to have done such a thing. You'll have your reward *cuddle*

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

rm_abutoo2 45M
1078 posts
6/20/2006 3:54 pm

My ex-wife and my son are leaving in August to move back to England. I knew it could happen when I married a foreigner. I knew it could happen when I got divorced. But damn... I'm going to miss my boy. And I don't give a shit about looking like a man. It makes me weep. I've got to let them go and trust in God though. Most of the time, the hardest thing to do is the right thing to do.

I feel your pain. So, in August, everyone can just know... I'll probably be a zombie for a bit.

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