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RedDevilJennifer 38T
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3/30/2006 4:46 pm

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More poetry


Ok...deep down I'm really a sunny person, but I admit I have some little mood swings (ok...major mood swings, but who's counting?)

I know a lot of my poetry is rather dark. Truthfully, I do my best writing when I'm depressed. It's therapeutic.

I've decided to post yet another poem I wrote. I hope you like it.

"Meltdown"

In my darkest hour,
I pray for salvation.
I try to keep faith alive,
But the odds are slim.

Fear is gripping me,
to the point of paralysis.
I'm scared for what the future holds,
for I'm afraid that it'll hold nothing.

Sometimes I wonder why I suffer.
Why must I pay the price for being kind?
There's no worse feeling that falling from grace,
except when you fall into your own despair.

I regret that I have but one life to give to myself,
So I have to look out for number one.
If I am Caesar, then life is Brutus
waiting to stab me in the back.

My world is crumbling around me,
burning to the ground like Rome.
And fate takes the form of Nero,
fiddling with glee as I'm reduced to ashes.

My stomach is in knots and my hair is falling out.
My chest is getting tight.
Panic and anxiety grip me
Destroying the final shreds of my sanity.

The crystal ball is murky
and my vision's getting hazy.
I had in all in my hands,
and had it all ripped away.

I thought I had help.
I thought I found salvation.
Though I saw the errors of my ways
It was too late to make ammends

My walls are destroyed by mortar fire
I'm vulnerable and raw.
There's no drugs to calm me now.
Purgatory is my residence.

I don't have a choice.
I don't have a say.
I'm powerless and weak
and it's pissing me off.

I used to be the alpha.
I used to be the king.
Now I'm disgraced and shamed,
and there's nothing left for me.

Please, God, set me free.
Why must you torture me?
I thought you were kind and just.
How do I deserve this vengeance?

The final confessions of a beaten man.
Seeking his penance.
I wander alone, seeking relief,
from the demons that rule my life.

Quote the Raven
Show me mercy.
Allow me some favorable luck.
I'm not asking for much.

I am defeated
Insanity has won.
I no longer have the strength to fight
My spirit is finally broken.


Well, this has been another session of Therapy Corner with RedDevilJennifer.

LOL

Hugs and Kisses

Jennifer

angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
3/30/2006 5:17 pm

Great dark poem though Jennifer. And if the therapy works.....then thats great!


_Safira 54F
11260 posts
3/30/2006 6:08 pm

WAY awesome!!!! Loved it!!!!

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