My words for today 7-29.....  

Raveheart2005 51M
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7/29/2006 4:18 pm

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My words for today 7-29.....


I want to take time out.... I have posted alot of things from my past but havent talked alot about the now ... so in this one I am going to do that to let some who voyuer my blog know more about Me and what I am about..also how I feel about some things..

First WOW what a world this is yes I am new here and have never been a part of this before didnt even know it existed, allready I have made some friends and enemies and yes I have seen a few that stirred my heart or my sex...

there is a Huge party coming up next weekend I am looking forward to it in ways to meet and put faces to names, however I am also scared to death becasue I have never been in this arena before...I have the same fears others do I am sure...

ok so let me focus about Me why am I here... I want to find many things, first I am totally clean and scared to death of diseases...I am not one in my past to do a one night fling I am 39 and have only had 4 partners in my life and not bragging I assure you, those 4 each lasted over 5 years and were totally hot and complete ..

I am NOT here looking for a submissive woman there is other sites for that but YES I am kinky i love sensual things and things that bond two people deeper,I am NOT a sadist not into giving alot of pain other then some hair pulling and hand spanking WEG... anyways

I have been rejected so far for being to Dominant , thats part of my nature I cant change that, I have been rejected becasue Im too nice not bad boy enough, I am a gentleman first its in my core to be the protector and care taker first allways...I have been rejected for being to tall 6'6 is hard to find a girl that feels comfy around me I guess...I have been rejected for my outer shell and now I will write about that becasue if you took enough time to get this far then you obviously want to know me...

I have had a blessed but very hard road in this life on earth, I have died three times each time was told I would have side effects for life they lied..

First time, I was shot serving as a ranger in the US Army...IN desert storm I wont go into details but glad i paid my own price for my freedoms , I am not on a ego trip about that issue.....

second I had a whole Pallet of computers on a Y2k project fall onto my neck and crushed it at c3 and c4 and c5 I was paralyzed for 18 mths from the neck down...and told if i did recover I would never walk again.. they lied again.... However... sitting there and lying there inactive I blew up from 175 to 560....yes it was devastating to me mentally and physically...

I have been through rehabs and i am complete ONCE again no side effects left except my weight and I am proud to say I am down to 340 and being 6'6 I am not looking to shabby....so those that judge me and call me fat can kiss my ass becasue I am working out, doing cardio eating right am allmost done with my diabties, and just this last month I lost 24 more lbs I have about 60 more to go and know the last 50 will be the hardest, I need people around me that will see me as Me not what i look like...

I look in the mirror and go yuck becasue i know what i used to be, I also know Im NOT QUITTING and in a year from this day when I post my new pics there will be many drooling after I bulk out and cut quick I can get ripped and will. thats shallow you said nope thats truth, i want to do it for ME not you and when you come back to try to get into my circle after my battle is done I will say fuck off because of how you dismissed me now I have the memory of a fox...and will NOT forget that you judged me by my looks...

thirdly, on halloween morning this past halloween at 5:20 am I had a apartment fire it was electrical same circuit as the smoke detectors i never heard them go off, and I cant talk about it all here but it was terrible I am lucky they revived me and i have my life but I know now what heat is and what it is to loose EVERYTHING even life...Things can be replaced I cant I am not materilistic yet allready I have rebuilt

now back to this place...the party is coming..theres couples hooking up allmost everyone I know has a list of who they want to meet or fuck, and I am sitting here today with no list and not on anyones to do list, I feel alone, also due to the fact i lost my best freind today i was in the army with at 430 am he was beheaded in a car accident and I had to go identify him yes I have a HUGE heart and would die for my friends..

anyways, so i have met some people some really out there oh should clarify in met them in chat, some way out there, some way shy and conservative and a bunch in the middle...

I have seen deceptions everywhere, I have been approached deceptivly in my first couple weeks here but thankfully and we having gotten to this I am gifted with some paranormal gifts i was able to know in advance who was trouble...

I also have seen about 4 I would love to seduce thier mind and fuck them after that until they where incoherent for about 12-14 hours where you can run a finger tip over thier spine while they are in a fetal position and all they can do is moan they have nothing left ot give or take......

I also have met one that is way above that, that if she winked at me and said keep me i would and i know it, she gave me hope and made me smile so much, shes so sexy and doesnt even see it, she has the best smile, and no we never met(sexually) but i tell you what..she is the most remarkable woman yet, just a friend and probably allways will be she has no interest in me this day...

My mother warned me ages ago of two girls..ones who will fuck ya and make your dick fall off (bad white trash skank)

and those who will make love to you and touch your heart forever (naughty good girls)....

today sitting here I cant say I dont want a relationship thts stable and steady I do but it donest have to be a 24/7 it doesnt have to be BDSM for sure thats not all I am as i stated earlier... I want it though to be helathy and clean and OMG fucking carnal.and yes I would be open to a open arrangement as wwell that wasnt a relationship just a clean safe steady fuck but it better be fun and greatly HOT..

I am a nympho was diagnosed at 14 by a clinic and meds just make it worse... on a normal day I would make love or take my parnter 3-6 times a day not counting oral so she better have a good drive too....

I am not against being totally open and honest and some experinces happening with a lady or a couple but I AM NOT BI so it would be a safe consentual event. I dont rush to get into panties I rush to get into minds if that makes sense and i will be writing alot here about relationships and how I believe...so stay tuned

for now those that have judged me for my looks or primality or teasing or flirting in the TEXAS room here was the truth I didnt get into the fact im 39 doule retired ,stable and secure with a new car and a investor in the japan market or any of the status things I can use im NOT about that I am just me take me for what i am and I will make myself into the best you ever had....

thats a promise and my word is all I have of any value.the rest can be taken away in a moments notice........

have a good saturday be safe and careful

Rave


Weirdie 59M

7/30/2006 9:57 am

Let's see.... damn, I forgot to make a list...

You're too tall, you're too fat, you're too Dom, you're too shallow, you're too materialistic.... sheesh, you sound like such a Republican.

But we love ya anyway, Rave. And we gotta yank yer chain now and then, you'd think we didn't care anymore otherwise. *snicker*


puddoger 59M/56F  
1 post
7/30/2006 1:52 pm

HI rave sorry to hear about ya friend ,to me you sound like a nice guy


Red_Maiden 59F  
164 posts
7/30/2006 2:14 pm

Hey there . sorry about your friend. You and his family will be in my prayers. This was a great way to get to know you and thanks for sharing.I look forward to meeting you at the party. Have a good one.


Raveheart2005 51M

7/30/2006 3:40 pm

thank you all for your condolences he shared my foxhole and my heart and no I am NOT BI...but my friends are in my heart ... and I want to thank you all for your uplifing comments and look fowarad to many days of fun and laughs..with you all...and whatever else happens happens and nope im not a mouth so know one will know what i know....I will die with it...see you in the room RAve


needingitdeep 47F
21 posts
7/30/2006 4:30 pm

rave .. ya know what I think cause I told ya in private ... hopefully one day I will get to see the giant that touched my heart

Needing


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