Peche needs a cuddle!  

Peche85 32F
828 posts
3/30/2006 2:22 am

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Peche needs a cuddle!

Ok this is probably going to be a long post but I need to let it out.

When I first joined here, I never ever thought I would meet anyone, I just liked reading the articles and looking at the pictures.

I met one guy because he knew a friend of mine so I thought he would be relatively normal lol. But we just had a couple of drinks together, then I sent him home.

Then I winked a guy who lived in the same town as me and we started messaging each other on here and then texting. He seemed like such a sweet, funny guy so I finally decided to meet him. He came round to my house and I was so shy I made my flatmate come to the door with me then made him come into her room becuase I'm so shy sometimes and I had silent patched and I knew T would fill them.

He brought a bottle of wine so we drank that then went to my room to watch a movie. Nothing happened, I was too scared to even move close to him cos I was too shy, even tho I wanted to.

He came round a few more times then one night when he was leaving he kissed me goodbye and I just sat there like a stunned mullet lol. Then I felt bad so went to say bye. I think I offended him because he texted saying he could take a hint but I said I was just shy and did really like him.

Next time he came he was about to leave and kissed me goodbye and I asked him to stay. After a few weeks of sleeping together we decided to "officially" be together.

He was my first real boyfriend and the only boyfriend I had slept with (the rest were all one night stands) and he taught me so much.

I think I have blogged about how we didn't trust me before and thats why we broke up.

When we broke up he said we could still see each other casually which at first I thought hell no and then decided to give it a go.

All I asked was for him to tell me if/when he slept with someone else but he kept saying that wasn't what it was about for him.

Then last time I went round to his place (about 2 weeks ago) things seemed really strange. We hadn't seen each other for a while and he had been acting differently the last few times we saw each other. While he was in the shower I got into bed and there were 2 movie tickets for a night which we for a night we were supposed to be having dinner together but he cancelled, saying he had to go "on a mission" which was code for something else.

So I asked who he went with and he said "a friend" then said nah, it was just his guy mate who he always hangs out with. Yeah like I believe that, I doubt 2 guys would go to see Walk the Line together, and he would've just said he was doing something with him.

So that was a bit suspicious then he told me about how a lady on the beach had told her kids to give him her number. I laughed and asked if he texted her and he said no.

Then in the morning I was naughty and read his messages on his phone (I know you're not supposed to do it but I knew something was up and he wasn't gonna tell me). There were messages to and from the lady on the beach and some of them were saying how she couldn't even handle fucking him once and he was saying i wish you had a pxt phone so you could see what you make me do to myself and shit like that.

It didn't bother me that much (it did a lil but surprisingly, not much) but I was pissed off he had lied to my face. So I got dressed and was about to leave but he was home and was asking me where I was going and it was still dark outside so I sat down with him.

Any normal female would've let him have it right there and then, but nope I'm stupid and had sex with him again before I left! I texted him when I got home and he said he knew I had read them and that it was just a one night thing and that he didn't tell me cos he knew i wouldnt really want to know.

Again any normal person would've broken it off. I had fully planned to not see him again but there was just something about me that I couldn't resist. So we kept texting each other and he was supposed to come to Ts birthday dinner last night. After promising me 10 times he would be there of course, as per usual, something came up and he couldn't make it. But he would make up for it on Thursday (tonight).

So I texted him tonight to see what was happening and he said he couldn't come because his boss wasn't working tomorrow so he wouldn't be able to get back to the town where he was working. How convenient. Of course he was very "sorry".

He has done this to me so many times, but whenever I couldn't go see him he wouldn't be happy. When I texted guys it was a big bad thing, yet he texted people he had on his phone called "yum" and someone who I'm sure is his ex but he says shes not.

So I told him not to lie to me cos I don't care if he doesnt wanna see me cos hes seeing someone else but he said it wasn't that & said he has to spend time with his sister cos shes going back to England soon (which I totally understand).

I texted back saying I just didn't know what to believe since he can lie to my face so easily and he said tht I had to choose what I wanted to do and that he can't change what I think.

To me that said it all. It finally hit me that if someone could just stop seeing me so easily they didn't really care about me and had absolutely no respect for me.

So I texted him telling him that and he said that was what he expected and goodluck.

Its so embarassing to think back at all the times hes had a stupid excuse for not seeing me and how badly he has been treating me and I just let him do it! I have always said I wouldn't let a guy treat me badly, but I just kept going back.

He's not a total jackass, he can be really sweet and thats what got me. Everytime he called me baby my heart would melt lol. Not that he actually meant it since he called lots of people that.

I'm not a total bitch, he does have some really good points and he did treat me well most of the time and he taught me a lot so I'm greatful for that, I just wish I had been smart enough to let go the first time.

I feel better already just talking about it! I havn't told T any of this because she isn't that type of friend to me, but I texted my other flatmate A who is at work and she told me some things to make me feel better so now all I need is a hug and I will be fine

Trust your instincts! They're usually right.

rm_MrHorny696 37M
29 posts
3/30/2006 3:42 am


you truely deserve better...

velvethandsNZ 69M

3/30/2006 11:58 am

Here's on big hug )( just for you sweetie.

Some men are bitches, and others are liars - there's a book called "why me lie and women cry" that's a nice piece of easy reading for a serious textbook type of tomb. You should give it a whirl/ ANother thing you should do is 'pick youself up, turn yourself round, and start all over again' with someone else! When you fall off the horse get right back on the saddle - I only wish I was close enough to be your ride

You'll find The One, till then, remember the rules of evidence and apply them! :d

NiceGuyMush 48M

3/30/2006 1:18 pm

Peche you sweetie

Only the good girls will hurt. Hold that thought inside and be strong. Velvet's advice is right on and I'm only half way between you and him in age!

I was a slow starter in relationships and to this day haven't been able to find the right lady. I been shat on naive all of it - it happens but you gotta go on.

The best advice I can give is to maintain the respect for others that you would wish them give you. Those who give you that, are worthy of your love, affection and friendship. If they treat you like dirt, leave them to their shallow existance.



rm_digg86 34M

3/30/2006 4:44 pm

it is very upsetting to hear this ,,
sounds like a jurk,, a wise man once said life is like a bed of roses, just dont lye on the pricks.
you will be fine hun you will see
keep smileing

GoodiesNZ 44M

3/31/2006 5:12 am

All in all well said Peche - yes it does feel better to just "let it out" sometimes doesn't it.

Sadly - I think most of us can relate to your experience as well... it's that irish thing otherwise known as "life"

sassybelle21 33F  
13313 posts
4/2/2006 5:50 am

Unfortunately I didn't trust my instincts this time and I got hurt quite badly. Anyway, here's lots of kisses for you

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