I'm going to Hell  

Package1971 47M
434 posts
4/27/2006 4:27 pm

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I'm going to Hell

For a number of reasons, I'm sure. And they're probably not all puritanical Christian reasons either. For all we know, the Muslims have it right, and the first time I ever used bacon bits on my Caesar salad, I solidified my eternal damnation.

But I became convinced of my fate when I went home for Christmas last year. It was then that I broke the second commandment: Thou shalt not covet thy mother's niece.

It might have been the eighth commandment. I was never very good with those... But the point is, I found myself lusting after my cousin. Well, I'm not very close with my cousins, and the last time I saw her, she was, like, 12. Now she had grown into something that was deadly sexy. The blonde hair, the blue eyes, the fine figure, the bubbling smile, the strange family resemblance. (Well, not so much that last one).

So I'm standing there, with my mouth open staring at her and thinking all these nasty thoughts. And there's this voice in my head saying,
"Dude, she's seventeen... Dude, she's your cousin."

I found this very disturbing. When did my subconscious voice start using the word, "Dude"? It wouldn't be long before I found my brain walking around the mall with its hat on crooked listening to music.

But I had a bigger problem, and that's why I called a friend of mine a few days later. I grew up with Bill and he's always given me good advice. Plus, his sister is a hottie.

I said, "I'm a little worried. Is it wrong to have sexual thoughts for your cousin?"

He said, "Oh nooooo... Listen, cousins, second-cousins, step-sisters, half-sisters, full-sisters... it's all good. Don't worry about it anymore."

I felt better knowing that. And, a few days later I had completely forgotten about her. Then I just got used to having a hottie in the family. I'm sure I'm still going to Hell though.

How about you? What's the most inappropriate crush you've ever had? And did it just go away, or did it turn into something really bad (restraining orders, ugly kids, etc.)?

PassionKisses4Me 45F

4/27/2006 6:14 pm

I lust after my cousin's husband...but fantasy is fantasy...it's all good as long as it stays in your mind



rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
4/27/2006 6:14 pm

It wouldn't be long before I found my brain walking around the mall with its hat on crooked listening to music.

Thats so funny......

pet_humility 50F

4/28/2006 8:36 am

Shows your only human.
If someone is attractive no matter where
they fit on the family tree, you can't help
but wonder...

MaggiesWishes 61F

4/28/2006 4:47 pm

Sending you 4 hail mary's for lusting

I had a crush on a distant 4th removed cousin. But I think it was more that he was kind to me, and didn't beat me like the other cousin's I had. So I always wanted to be around him. I think he freaked out, thought he liked me too ...not that anything would have ever physically happen, but ... I never saw him again.
Face it, shit happens.

SxyCrazyCool 39F

4/29/2006 11:53 pm

It was my cousin.. I was 14..

I think I mistook the special bond we have for something else.. It wasn't lust though, it was a crush.. I didn't even know what Lust was back then

Truthfully I don't really think any crush is inappropriate.. as long as it remains a crush.. I think everyone's had a couple of silly crushes in their life..


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