The Coming Week  

MzThang1965 52F
39 posts
7/26/2006 5:24 pm

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7/27/2006 2:41 pm

The Coming Week

I'm not looking forward to it 'at all'.

The girls will leave for their dad's on Friday and they will be gone all next week. Our summer visitation schedule is week on/week off. When they come back to me next Friday we'll be all excited to get ready for our trip, but until then I'll be by myself and I'm already dreading it.

I was a pretty messed up kid and I kept pretty much to myself. I had one or two friends but they faded away over the years. When people were making friends in high school and college I was in a corner somewhere figuring out how to keep myself sane.

I'm not moping about my past because there isn't anything I can do about it. The facts is what the facts is. It does, however, make it difficult for me now. Friends 'we' had when we were married were 'his' college friends and of course he got them in the divorce lol When I met David I made new friends but as we're no longer together - well - they were his first so I have sort of bowed out. It isn't fair to put them in the middle and make them choose. Or maybe I'm just too shy to stick up for my place in the crowd? I'll ponder that some and get back to you on that. Either way, it would be difficult to run into him so it's probably best I stay away.

So, here I sit with the weekend approaching and while I truly enjoy doing the work around the house that I have been doing - I'm dreading it. I'm a social person even though I'm shy at first and I want to GET OUT OF HERE! I want to go laugh and have fun like other people do. I want to go to a summer BBQ like I hear so many others talk about. I feel so insulated and isolated. I'd like to find a singles group near me but everything I seem to find is associated with the church and while I'm a believer it seems to be a tad too vanilla for my tastes. I want to meet people. I want to make friends. I just have to figure out how. I lost out on a lot of social skill learning when I was a kid so as an adult I'm at a bit of a loss. I just know that I would much prefer doing something else than painting the ceiling in my bathroom and fixing the moulding in the shower this weekend! It's summertime, dammit, and I'm young and smart and pretty good looking and I should get dressed up nicely and have a date!

SingleWarrior 53M

7/26/2006 11:52 pm

Any "Farmers Market's", swap meets or anything like that going on? Good place to meet people, have a casual chat over something, make new friends interested in similar things, etc

AstirRelicLatah 66M
1993 posts
7/27/2006 4:56 am

I empathize with your feelings. When I go to parties, I would like to be the life of the party, but that's just not me. I finally came to terms with who I am and have learned to be comfortable in my own skin. I don't know if that resonates for you, but it helped me in my quest for satisfaction.

JuicyBBW1001 56F

7/27/2006 9:39 am

Have you tried some of your local AdultFriendFinder groups? Sometimes they are so organized they have meet and greets. Might be away to find someone to befriend. But I feel your pain sometimes I feel as you do.


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