What Am I doing?  

MsSexyBtch 37F
59 posts
5/16/2006 9:38 pm

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9/8/2006 8:17 am

What Am I doing?

Sometimes I do things and then later I'm like what the fuck are u doing. I tend to fall in love quickly and i'm falling. I don't understand why I put myself through so much pain. I'm in pain now and I don't know how to rid myself of that pain. It hurts me so much that I'm paralized. I can't move. I can't move out of this place and away from the pain. It has a hold on me and I'm trying to break free. I cry at night because that damn pain keeps fucking with me. Telling me not to go, I love you, you mean the world to me. If that is so why do u cause me so much pain. I catch myself daydreaming about the cure for my pain all day. He's my cure and I want him to stroke my pain gently with his cure. Only he can make me pain free. I just met this cure and already he has taken me to places that pain has never taken. Do I settle for pain or do I go for the cure? That is the question I ask myself every night as I lay in my bed daydreaming about the cure. I think I just love pain and cure is a quick fix to make me forget about all my pain....

elysianpleasure 48M

5/17/2006 6:22 pm

I know that feeling... I have got the same problem. Welcome to the blog. Drop by and say hi sometime. Elysian

EnterPaddyAvian 40M

5/19/2006 8:30 pm

i digg wut your sayin . your deep. i like dat. i wanna change my bloq now... u know what i will.

Lucky2ner 35M
1 post
6/26/2006 12:14 pm

hey love can hurt but when its good theres no better feeling in the world

rm_bladebl 61M
16 posts
7/25/2006 11:24 pm

Pain is an indicator that you are still alive,and nothing sucessfully aquired comes easy.Whether you are willing to risk your heart is another matter.The old adage of gambling says...Never play with money that you can't afford to lose,how much of you are you willing to lose???Is it worth the risk??Can you recover???or will the scars remind you of the battles that you have endured???those scars remind us that above all else,even if we didn't win......WE SURVIVED!!..BLADE.

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