So much to think about.  

MrMagicHands72 46M
6 posts
1/30/2006 12:53 pm

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So much to think about.

So, I have reviewed the comments on my question that I posted in the Magazine, here on AdultFriendFinder. Some pretty interesting comments came as a result. There is this one fucker who likes to call me a lier and cheater. He can go fuck himself, for that one. Not for what he said, but for how he said it.

Then, there were others who totally chimed in with what I was saying.

There was one female respondent who said that because I am married, that women would not be interested in contacting me. That one made me think.

I am in a hellofa situation. Having never lived the single life, and only seeing it lived out in all of my friends when was in the Army, I see that I missed out on a lot.

Another dimension to all of this IS my relationship. It IS a good relationship. But, not at all close to perfect. Although, we are mutually supporting and loving, we are not on the same page, sexually. And no matter how much we discuss it and try to be open about it, I seem to get nowhere. Its like I am in a never ending Lufberry circle. If I was on the same page with her, I wouldn't even be here. But, alas, she and I aren't. So, I feel like I have no choice. And its not like this hasn't been discussed a million times before in the past 14 years. It has. So, the fact still remains. I AM married. And I AM looking.

Its not like I haven't tried to work on my relationship. I have. But, you can't change someone, else. In fact, I wouldn't want to. But, if I could, I would have her join me on this joourney, together. I think it would be alot of fun. She isn't interested; has no real imput on the matter. And says she is happy the way things are. What am I supposed to do about that? I am not happy with the way things are. I make the effort. I really do. But, she isn't receptive. I am even more than willing for her to go out and explore her sexuality with other people. That is how secure I feel about our relationship.

So, misery seeks company. I suppose, that it what I am looking for: a woman who is in the same boat. Her man doesn't seem to satisfy all her needs and she has to find it somewhere, else. If its meant to be, its meant to be. In the meantime, I still continue to work on my own relationship. I keep an open mind.

rm_muffin162 57M
763 posts
1/30/2006 4:22 pm

Only one called you a liar,i think you got flamed lol.

MrMagicHands72 46M

1/30/2006 4:26 pm

Thank you for your comment. I really am sincere. Anyone who knows me, personally, would agree. There is one or two individuals who think I am full of crap. I am just trying to find my way. I am working on what I can within my own relationship. It always seems to end up with me wanting more. I have a good woman. But, we just aren't on the same page.

To lie and say that I am not married would only serve to complicate matters even more. This is me. This is my situation. And who's to say that I would even find somebody to interact with, or that someone would even want to interact with me for that matter? I feel that all I can do is try to work out MY feelings on my own.

rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
1/30/2006 6:38 pm

Welcome to Blogland, Mr Magic...
I, also, appreciate your honesty..not only here, but with your
wife. Communication is key...critical.

I was married for many years to a man where there was little
connection physically and yet we served each other for many years
being *married*. We are still business parnters and friends and
have beeen divorced for nearly 15 years now. Your being willing
to work through your own feelings is to be applauded.

Best of luck to you on your journey and as I said, Welcome to blogland.

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

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