MoJo32565 48M/33F
19 posts
4/17/2006 10:03 pm

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4/21/2006 10:26 pm


David came over this morning. The first time I have seen him since last July. The sex was great, of course. And then we just lay talking for a while and now I am very worried about him. He doesn't seem himself, and he's been having some hard times. That's private so I won't get into what's been going on for him. He told me that he's not good for anyone. I think that was in response to my comment about the other guy and that, even if I don't care about him that much, he would take care of me. When he said that, it scared me. I can't really explain it, but I just didn't like the way he said it. He's going to Europe (Spain) next week and he told me that he's got a feeling he won't come back from Europe. He says there's nothing for him here, in Florida, especially in Molino. He thinks he's going to find what he's looking for there. I really hope he does because I want him to be happy, but I don't know what (or who) he could find there that would fill whatever void he has in his life. When he was leaving, he said that he didn't want me to take it the wrong way but I would probably never see him again. But that we would still chat online. I hope he knows that I will always care about him and that I will do anything for him. I want him to be happy. That's all I want for everyone I care about. I'm sorry that I'm not what he's looking for, although he doesn't know yet what he is looking for. If he asked last summer, I would have saved myself for him. He was only the second guy I had been with and I would have waited for him to come home or for me to get a chance to go to him. But he didn't ask that. I don't know. I need to talk to him again because I am really worried. While he's talking about my cutting myself again, he's sounding "off" to me. Even if he says there's nothing wrong, I know that ain't him.

rm_pee4me69 67M
38 posts
4/18/2006 3:03 am

(Obviously I'm not David, ... but you visited me in a dream, so wild, so passionate with what we both enjoy ... wow!)

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