BedTime Story  

MischiefSprite 54F
501 posts
9/3/2006 12:17 am

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9/17/2006 8:41 pm

BedTime Story

A friend in the chatroom asked me to tuck him in tonight (cyber tuck) and to tell him a bedtime story. So I started like this: There once was a ferocious monster...

Sounds like a good way to scare kids into having nightmares, huh? I have recurring nightmares because...

There once was a ferocious monster. It was the monster of infidelity. This monster gobbled up most of my happiness before I could stop him. This monster is the reason I spent a lot of time sleeping during the day this summer. I've been avoiding the remnants and scraps the monster left.

It's often difficult to sleep at night. For the better part of twenty years, I did not sleep alone. The monster of infidelity was kept at bay. Although my marriage was not bliss, there was still the nighttime when I would hear my husband breathing beside me and I knew I was not alone.

I still cry a lot at night, not because I miss him, but because this king-sized bed is just too lonely for a Mischief Sprite. A new monster has taken the place of infidelity. It is the monster of solitude. At times like tonight, my heart still feels like it is breaking into pieces and I wonder if they will ever be put back together again.

I long to hear someone breathing here beside me. I look forward to someday again when an accidental brush against my skin in the middle of the night leads to passionate love, when I can envelope someone in my arms and be enveloped.

It is the most simple, yet most difficult of all requests: to love and be loved.

Now you know why it just isn't a good idea to ask me to tell you a bedtime story...


toothysmile 51M
16517 posts
9/3/2006 12:39 pm

oh... i wouldn't ask you to read me a bed-time story...(wink).
wellcome to blogville. it's a fun place to be.
hugz.


Steel_Legs 60M/F

9/6/2006 8:17 pm

This is you at your best! Not the subject matter, cuz that's depressing as hell, but the feeling. Excellent Writing!!!

Steel


MischiefSprite 54F
334 posts
9/6/2006 8:44 pm

    Quoting Steel_Legs:
    This is you at your best! Not the subject matter, cuz that's depressing as hell, but the feeling. Excellent Writing!!!

    Steel
Steel,
Thanks for your comment. Actually, me at my worst...my muse only seems to truly visit in fits of melancholy. Hey, I take what I can get.


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