It's out of my hands...  

Michael_Nivek 33M
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2/2/2006 7:59 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

It's out of my hands...


Trust... With a cold chill, and a knot in my stomach, I felt it slip away from me once more. Given to me in a gentle ballet of time and understanding... it now slips through the cracks of uncertainty and fear. It was taken from me by the foolish words of another, and hidden in the shadows of a most horrible question... "What if?" Ultimately I am helpless to stop it... for the question does not reside in my mind... but in that of the one who's trust I once held. It is only they who can venture into the darkness and shine understanding through the shadows and onto her trust once more. My past screams at me that all is lost, that this trust will forever be enshadowed. But I will not hear these screams. For if I do, than once more will my enemies of fear and uncertainty destroy the very thing I hold so dear to me.
I can no longer do anything but stand before those who's trust I once held... naked and alone. For I can only leave the decision to the one who once trusted me. They have every right to strike me down and leave me with the tatters of another ruined work of love, and understanding, leaving only a torn painting of pain. But will they? Is the trust I once held completely gone? Has it been thrown in to the darkness so deep that it will not be found by the only one that could save me? I realize, I have only one option open to me now... to remain a hopeful person, and to wait for the final crushing blow...

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