l'histoire et l'angoisse  

MercuryGurl 34F
14 posts
5/4/2006 7:39 am

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6/4/2006 6:25 pm

l'histoire et l'angoisse

the jungle

tripped over


completely erased
by the charm and chatter
of the pale faced lillies
slender stems
my neck
like a noose

heeted 59M
9 posts
5/8/2006 5:07 am

your very expressive, does your writing cheer u up or feed into the mood yr in?

MercuryGurl replies on 5/8/2006 8:21 am:
Sometimes both!

Photofun2006 51M

5/9/2006 6:56 pm

Hey MercuryGurl,
I've been nosing around in your blogs, and I really love your writing. Very deep and insightful. The whole white female/black male thing is coming from a very interesting perspective. Maybe one day you can explain why I like black women.
Anyway, your moods are always so down. What gets you excited? What cheers you up? Are you ever happy? You know, it's Spring. Everything is so lush and green. Everything is new. I would like to see you out of this

MercuryGurl replies on 5/9/2006 7:17 pm:
it is sad to say that i am quite a morose person at times. excitement for me is so subjective, varying moment by moment, it could be a great conversation, doing something new, being in love, or being challenged...

being cheered up is an even rarer thing...

im preoccupied with psycho-social issues that cannot be resolved, giving me a vast sense of powerlessness, overwhelming me, and leaving my mind with no rest.

thanx for your concern...i appreciate it.

nontoxicmale 65M

5/11/2006 7:44 am

Hey, Merc, the fact is that nobody really has any power or control. It's just a figment of our imaginations. Once we let go of the need to control things, there is a lot more peace. You are so incredibly intelligent and creative. I find tremendous joy in that and hope that you do too. You really do have the potential for joy and satisfaction in your life. I hope that you find it. I think that it comes mostly from just letting go.

nontoxicmale 65M

5/11/2006 11:32 am

BTW, I don't think you were denied in the group. I think AdultFriendFinder is going through some bugs. I got the same response going in but, like you, came in through the backdoor.

Photofun2006 51M

5/14/2006 6:48 pm

I'm sorry to hear you're so bogged down with issues. At least you are smart enough and creative enough to get your feelings down in writing. The fact that you are sharing even these morose poems tells me you want to reach out to people. Do you ever do any open mics? You are talented. You can be positive and cheerful about that, can't you???

MercuryGurl replies on 5/15/2006 12:26 pm:
i just dont do positive and cheerful! hand me some lillies, daffodils, and place me in a field of green grass...mabye i'll skip around the fields a bit and throw my arms around some trees...

positive and cheeful enough for you?


Open mics aren't my thing, ya dig...i did them a few times when i was a youngin in high school...just dont have that type of frustration anymore!

RavishingRed1062 55F

5/16/2006 4:07 pm

You just need to get to OK... I can cheer ya up!

I'm a pretty happy person... I'd be a LOT happier if I'd get my MOJO back... I've had stirrings... Maybe.. just MAYBE he's getting ready to make an appearance.. but hey, my house has NEVER been cleaner.. LOL


heeted 59M
9 posts
6/3/2006 7:42 am

well, i like to read what u have to say, hang in there and best wishes as u move on in life

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