1 HOT moment  

Mackey05 40F
508 posts
4/7/2005 9:26 pm

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1 HOT moment


I was in a bad mood today at work because a group of us were given a deadline or a full year to accomplish a simple task and we failed. It was a simple one and the duties were clearly divided up and outlined yet only 2 of us came through. We wasted a lot of time, money, and in the process it made all of us as a whole look like an irresponsible bunch of schmucks. I am the youngest in the group and I don't want something to put a black mark on my career so early.

One of the people on the committee was chewed out and decided to call me on my cell and vent about me making everyone look bad. My reception in my office sucks and I had to hunch over in my chair nearly putting my head on my desk to listen to her rants. As I was doing this I heard a light knock at the door. I tilted my head to see the man whom I had mentioned in an earlier post. ( The man, I'll call him Ryan, was the man whom I had flirted with at yesterday's meeting and have had ongoing sexual tension with despite the fact that he just got married to an older woman a few months ago. ) He had e-mailed me letting me know he was sending over some paperwork and I thought I'd get it via interoffice mail.. Nope, this was a hand delivery in more ways than one.

I signaled to him to come in and wait a minute as my phone buzzed with the yelling of our colleague. I was very tense and he sensed it. Without a word he snuck up behind me and started massaging my shoulders. It was a pleasant shock.... He forced my door closed for privacy and I didn't move as I tried to diffuse the situation on my cell. It felt so good feeling his strong hands kneading my shoulders and upper back but I knew it shouldn't be going on and I couldn't move or I'd loose my signal and even making her think for a second that I had hung up on her would make things worse.

He brushed my ponytail aside and worked on my neck and I could feel myself getting turned on. This had to stop... This was not right as much as I enjoyed it and wanted more to happen... Into the phone I said,"Someone just walked in and I gotta take care of something and then I'll call you back. I'm so sorry."

I quickly spun around and stood up ending up face to face with Ryan. I looked into his deep blue eyes and was speechless and couldn't move my body.... He pushed the chair aside and moved close enough that our hips were touching and his hands rested on either side of me on my desk. He smiled and I couldn't help but smile back even though I was stuck, still frozen and struggling to think or do much else. He leaned in and I could feel his rock hard erection through his pants and it made my panties swim with my warm juices. I could hear his breathing and feel the warmth of his body as his lips got closer and closer to mine...

NO! I can't do this! GOD I WANT HIM SO BADLY! IT'S WRONG AND ANY PLEASURE WILL GIVE ME 100x MORE PAIN, FRUSTRATION, AND ANGER! AHHHHH!!!!

Finally I thawed and moved my head out of the way then back into place. He retreated a little. Our eyes met and I could feel every inch of my body tingle. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to rip every piece of clothing off of him and fuck him raw on my desk.... NO!

He smiled and automatically I smiled back. He leaned in again but went for my neck. Feeling his warm breath cascade down my neck made my knees weak. In my ear he whispered, "I want you... I know you want me... We both know we shouldn't but it feels so right."

I reached out to push him away and couldn't control my hands as I caressed his arms slowly starting at his tanned forearms and stopping on his thick shoulders. His hands danced up the back of my shirt unclasping by bra. My hands felt their way up to his face and I brushed his cheeks and ran my fingers through his hair. I pulled him in for a kiss.. He pulled away pressing his erect cock into me harder. I tried again and he did the same. I felt his warm hands sweep from my lower back, up my abs and to my breasts. He moved in for a kiss and I denied him, but he continued toward my neck.

I grabbed his face with both hands and whispered in his ear, "I want you so bad... I've dreamt of this so many times and I just can't." I wanted to suck his ear lobes and lick his neck as he pulled away... Our eyes met and locked. I wanted to release his cock from his pants and wanted to finally see what I have fantasized about so many times as I wondered how big it was and what it looked like. Every inch of me wanted to feel it. I wanted to suck it and feel all of it inside of me.

His hands moved down from massaging my breasts to my hips. Mine were groping his round muscular ass. He both moved in.. Closer... Closer... Before out lips could meet we both tilted our heads inward so our foreheads met, resting on each other. Our hands moved to each other's cheeks.

I closed my eyes,"As much as I want this I don't want to ruin things. I don't want to get hurt. I want you but this is not right."

He leaned in more and said,"I feel the same and just can't bring myself to do it as much as I need it right now. I'm so sorry for coming over."

"No, it's okay... I mean something is there and we both know it. Sooner or later something was going to happen. I'm just glad we stopped."

"Yeah."

He took a step back and watched me as I reached up in my bra to reattach the clasps. We both smiled and when I was done he gave me a long lingering hug. He whispered in my ear as we felt the warmth of the embrace, "I'm so sorry.. I'm so sorry."

As both of us let go I caressed his cheeks with my hands and smiled. I watched him open my door and leave. He stopped to turn around and give me a smile.

Right now I feel a huge sense of relief that nothing happened. For a few hours I felt an intense horniness or yearning.... I don't know how to describe what my body felt, but I could tell it was disappointed. I'm so happy I didn't give in and that he couldn't go through with it either. My respect for him has grown so much. I just hope next time we see each other things are not awkward and we can go on enjoying the sexual tension while pretending nothing happened and knowing nothing ever will.

sportyfun56 107M

4/7/2005 10:37 pm

Mackey,
Hun you passed a supreme test and temptation. I applaud you for standing up to it even though you wanted it so badly. And hope for you also that there will not be any awkwardness following this between the two of you. But as for respect, you should have a little bit more self-respect now also.


Sporty


Sexonthebrain4U 51M
36 posts
4/8/2005 12:13 am

I don't know what to say...the heart wants what the heart wants, but you are treading on thin ice! Just the fact that this guy recently got married and he's already contemplating cheating on his new wife with you should say something about his morals...so much for "Til death do us part"...don't get me wrong, I'm no saint and am just as horny as the next guy, but this feels totally wrong. I'm afraid you're gonna set yourself up for a big downfall, with potentially serious reprecussions at work. If this goes bad, and word gets out...you might be looked upon as a slut and a homewrecker...you never know what the consequences could be. I enjoy reading your blogs and as I've said before I think you're an intelligent, sincere, and honest person...that's what I like about you, and even though I don't know you personally I get the feeling that you are a good person, just a little confused. I had a chance to hook up with this chick who was married AND my nextdoor neighbor...she was a little older and was always flirting with me, but I obviously knew her husband too, so I just couldn't do it, not to him...he was a helluva nice guy and it was wrong! Damn, and she was attractive too...it just scared the shit out of me, ya know? It didn't feel right, and this coming from a guy , who in the prime of his teen years would've just about fucked anything that crawled...lol! I can't tell you how to live your life, and you might not even give two shits about what I think(I'm no Dr. Phil...teehee!), but I hope you think very carefully about this one...once it's done, there's no going back...take care, hun.


multiO4Uno5 64M
17 posts
4/8/2005 6:30 am

do not let lust get confused with respect. maybe all both of you needed was that moment.


CuntSlurpa 47M
131 posts
4/8/2005 9:53 am

Mackey,

Good for you! I'd like to think that I would be able to react the same way in that type of situation (especially since *I'm* married). My history on that front is not good though.


TakesTeatsStood 51M
505 posts
4/8/2005 10:51 am

Mackey - I was going to write one thing based on your initial post (that you were doomed to give in eventually because sooner or later you will be weaker - both of you) - but I just read your last comment.

Married after 2 months? If he is worth it - just wait - that marriage is not going to last. I would say the odds are even slimmer if you are around to make him possibly regret that he just got married. He will find reasons to nit pick at home and compare you to his wife.... of course he will only know the side of you you want him to see. Not trying to encourage you to mess things up with him and his wife, but from the sounds of it you might be contributing just by being around him.

Good luck either way, you had more power and control than I ever would have.


mygmyg 60M

4/8/2005 11:11 am

Mackey, You are obviously growing as a person and a Lady. Great self discipline on your part, and yes, if you must, a little credit to Ryan. It does take 2 to Tango. Be strong, as wonderful as the lustful desires you two share, playing with fire is addicting.
Back to the phone call from your co-worker, what is up with her? You made her look bad by following through with your protion of the group project? Someone needs to close a filing cabinet door on her head. or maybe that is the cause for her idiotic behavior. Hope that you've straightened her out.


cloud1945 69M

4/9/2005 5:13 am

Mackey when I was a young man a girl got me to promise we would not go all the way. We dated a year and a half and ended up in her bed many times. We thought we would save the moment if we married. The ultimate thing to do.
I kept the promise to her but finally broke up with her. She is a dean over a college now.
Anyway this made me very,very strong. I found that I could walk away from about any sexual situation,if I thought it was the thing to do. I walked away more often than I should have,but this became part of me.
One woman said I was the strongest person she had ever seen. She was talking about me keeping my sexual desires controlled.
My only point is Your will can become very strong too if you want to resist. Like the muscles in your body your will can prevail. No can really mean no.


cloud1945 69M

4/9/2005 6:19 am

I am not saying do this or that. I was only saying what I did and what it did to me. I neglected to tell you it will hurt like H_______ and you know what I mean. Each instance the teriffic pain will be there. Its nearly like punishing oneself. In some instances it will take only a short time to heal in others it could take a lifetime and in one instance I remember it will probably never be fully gone in my mind. Good luck in everything you do.


LickMe5X 53F
41 posts
4/19/2005 12:10 pm

I quickly spun around and stood up ending up face to face with Ryan. I looked into his deep blue eyes and was speechless and couldn't move my body.... He pushed the chair aside and moved close enough that our hips were touching and his hands rested on either side of me on my desk. He smiled and I couldn't help but smile back even though I was stuck, still frozen and struggling to think or do much else. He leaned in and I could feel his rock hard erection through his pants and it made my panties swim with my warm juices. I could hear his breathing and feel the warmth of his body as his lips got closer and closer to mine...

NO! I can't do this! GOD I WANT HIM SO BADLY! IT'S WRONG AND ANY PLEASURE WILL GIVE ME 100x MORE PAIN, FRUSTRATION, AND ANGER! AHHHHH!!!!

LAst line above...heed it...


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