I doubt I will ever understand it... maybe I was not meant to...  

LoyaltyandHonor 37M/32F
3114 posts
3/28/2005 6:04 am

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I doubt I will ever understand it... maybe I was not meant to...

I seem to be at a loss here, I have gotten several emails saying I am a great writer, which they want my blogs to continue… I do not understand it though, what makes me seem like a good writer?

Is it because I research a lot of what I write about? Perhaps because I write from my heart? Is it mostly just because of my age? I am honestly at a loss here, I am not looking for an ego boost, I am legitimately curious.

Maybe I am to hard on myself, several of the women have told me that as well, but it seems that the only people who get anything in joy from my writing is the women and absolutely no men.

I guess perhaps it is just I, I am not use to getting a compliment of any kind. I got a couple of emails that said I had helped inspire them to write again. I wish I had this kind of attraction in real life to women. Perhaps I do and I am just redicously blind by physical beauty and being on the Internet helps separate that flaw. Being told I am smart really throws me off because I am a highschool dropout, and most the places on the radio and TV make us out to be the biggest losers in existence.

I have a feeling that someday I will meet a woman who can help me realize the things that I apparently can not. She’ll be the key that finally unlocks my true potential. Without her I am just a worthless puddle of jet fuel though. Once she ignites me, I pray I will burn like the sun.

PS… I will try and work on some more stuff this afternoon, I don’t know if it will be up today or not though, I am still working though.

LoyaltyandHonor 37M/32F
1241 posts
3/28/2005 6:55 pm

I kind of thought that is what some of you meant, but I do not like to assume anything if I can avoid it. I understand what you mean, I wish I could write the way I want to, but AdultFriendFinder wouldn't ever allow me to actually discuss much of what I have actually experienced. It makes it hard because I have to censor much of what my heart desires and feels in general.

Thank you blonde, I appreciate the explanation.

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