The eyes  

Lonelywoman56 61F
45 posts
1/25/2006 7:28 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The eyes

My intuition fills my body with overflowing emotions, I feel so strongly and surely. I know things and they hurt my heart. How how I survived so long with this seemingly torment? Its easy, you just have to remember that everyone has their own pain or their own dilemmas.
The walls we build around us trying to keep ourselves safe and protected actually keep us from what we really need to survive.
It can be so seemingly easy to give up and settle. A lot of people do and they do well, but me? I believe in true love, I believe in deep love. I can feel it when its there.
If someone wants to love me and knows that it would be a good choice, a good life, a good beginning, but deep down inside they don't.
Then what.
That leaves me with unanswered questions that I can not answer for someone else.
Will they learn to love me and respect me?
I'm lovable I know that, but I also know how terribly hard it is for some men to love, although I know how badly they want too.
Am I willing to give myself completely to someone who doesn't love me? Deep down?
Should I allow myself to fall deeply in love or hold back.
Is that the question?
That question was posed to me.
That is not really the question, that is the answer.
Real love is not a choice.
It happens, whether you want it to or not. It takes your emotions and tells them what to feel.
We have control of our behavior, our reactions, the things we choose to share or keep to ourselves.
We don't have control of love. To me, one simply loves.
I have seen men choose who to love or who not to love. Men who consider the facts, weigh the options and make controlled, "intelligent" decisions. I have spoke to male friends about this and received many honest answers. My echoing question is...
Is that love? Is that how other people love?
Is that real love?
Am I a mess for letting myself feel so much, should I turn my insides down and do what is "best"?
Ic, I cant, I just cant. I have to know that I am not a "good choice" to someone.
I want someone who loves me, not settles for me.
I am lovable and I deserve to be loved.

rm_ohsolustful 59M
859 posts
1/25/2006 10:12 am

Follow your heart and your first instincts, they are usually right. Don't settle for just a comfortable relationship, it's never that satisfying in the long run, and you wind up with regrets later in life...I didnt follow my heart years ago and still regret it to this day...She will haunt my soul and spirit forever....The ONE that I let slip away......

SpaceRangerNJ 56M
4687 posts
1/25/2006 11:47 am

I am the analytical type. I believe I made the analytical choice when I married my wife. I will be expanding on this topic in my own Blog.
Suffice it to say, don't settle.
You'll just keep settling.
You can, although, have faith that they will change, grow, etc. How much faith you have can determine whether you take the plunge or wait.
I think love is uncontrollable if you are open to it. All that stuff about loving yourself before you can love another, etc, etc.
Good luck.

luvtooples3 41M
8 posts
1/27/2006 11:17 pm

Nice post. Very deep

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