Me, myself and I  

Lonelywoman56 61F
45 posts
2/26/2006 5:12 am

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Me, myself and I

I'm becoming more and more open and stronger, I have learned to listen and observe.
I'm amazed at the world around me, people everywhere triing so hard to find something, can I really be one of the lucky ones to have found it.
I think I am, and its not because I thought I had to be bullet proof or hard,(which I did think and it didn't work)it has come from understanding, understanding and excepting the fact that everyone is complex, different and good, even the most fucked up people are OK if you just stop and listen.Understanding that I don't know anything about anything, I'm just here to try and learn.
The last two months of my life have been interesting, where my life is heading I do not know, But whatever direction it goes is fine.

I'm not looking for advice, I'm OK, I'm just sharing my life with some of my favorite people and anyone else who cares to listen.

I met a man on here and we started seeing each other, hes a good man , a little lost but good.

He has a son whom Ive met and adore, Ive met his family and hes met mine, we are in a relationship, I ask for honesty and we have that. It works too.
I have always asked for honesty here on X match, that is the way it is, and it actually works, one has to be prepared for it with an open mind, I love it, its harder to find in the outside world but if you stay open and direct people seem to sense it and act like themselves with you after a time.

Hes going "through" a divorce. His wife has put him through a lot of shit the last few years. They had a good life before two years ago when she picked up. Yeah shes an alcie but was sober for 12 years. I finally met her and she was a jerk. I called her a few times and now we are friends, hey what can I sat I like her, she needs a lot of meetings and I hope shes going to stick it out. She has a lot of denial issues and not excepting blame for her behaviors. I think shes smart and strong and I hope and pray she makes it. If she does make it she is going to be a great person.

I love him and his son and family and believe we could be very happy together.
The thing that I am most thrilled about though is completely selfish, I know that if he goes back with her and they work things out that I would be OK. If they all end up together I can let go and carry on with my life,
I would miss them and cry but I have learned to let go when I am supposed to. That was my hardest life lesson so far.
No matter what way this goes, I'm OK.
Thank you higher power whom I choose to call God.

Lonelywoman56 61F

2/26/2006 5:57 am

I forgot to mention what it was I found, it was me.

sassybelle21 33F  
13313 posts
2/26/2006 6:11 am

I hope everything gets sorted out soon I know you are a brave woman and call pull through easily. Just hang in there and smile!!

exoticeyes1000 57F

2/26/2006 6:19 am

Good Luck...stay positive...stay strong

papyrina 52F
21133 posts
2/26/2006 8:02 am

finding your self is always the hardest part,i hope every thing works out for you

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