LIfe Aint Fair  

Linds1957 60F
14777 posts
7/9/2006 8:08 am

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7/10/2006 7:45 am

LIfe Aint Fair

Sunny and windy, great weather for the Calgary Stampede...I'm going to go for my walk in a bit, and maybe not even put on bug spray..!!

Along the honesty theme..I'm thinking of telling you about me... Maybe one bit at a time.. You might be thinking I'm all fluff, and my life is easy..

Actually no.. that would be giving you the wrong idea. I do live in a nicer house now, and my kids are older, and it IS easier...I finally got my boy through high school, graduated, and partied out. He had a blast, but I felt like I graduated as well because of all the homework I helped him with, and the pushing I did to get him through school.

In the beginning:
I married a very horny guy (maybe that's why I married him) whose parents were divorcing and just barely out of divorce courts. If I have a word of advice for any of you, dont do that. There's always the bickering and fighting going on in the family.
I moved here to a dirty house full of spiders, and broken windows.. totally "decorated" with brown everywhere.(brown curtains, brown fake wood walls, brown plastic covering the seats of the kitchen chairs, and that terrible orange and yellow, amd brown kitchen carpeting that was so popular at the time)
The farm was run down to say the least, because of the family feuding going on. You know, it's possible to feel really, really down in a situation like that, and on top of it all, I realized shortly after marrying him, that I married the wrong guy. I had no money, I had nowhere to go, so I stayed with the him. We were always fighting, even back then. He wouldn't help me in the house, and one day, I carried too much in my right hand, and squished a disk in my back. That was majorly painful, and I took a whole year to recover from that. I suffer because of that, even today. So, that was my first year of marriage..I lived in a crappy house, married to the wrong guy, and had a serious back injury. I had nowhere to go, so I stayed here.

I survived..I think there were fun times in there.. We made love sometimes, very very

I did manage to get the windows fixed, the brown color out of my house, and I managed to be fairly happy, and then we had a child. She was a beautiful child but born 10 days late and wouldn't open her eyes for 3 weeks. It turned out that she has several physical disabilities, but she was born with determination, the likes of which I have not seen before.. Like I always say, "the flip side of stubbornness, is determination", and if she had not been so stubborn, she would never have made it through school, through Devry, and now in New York, taking further courses.

Maybe she got that stubbornness from me, because I refused to give up. I made the most of my situation. I made that house a home.

That is only part one of my life..I know I'm not unique in having problems in my life. You all could tell me lots...

The next installment of problems came with the birth of my son...

But anyways.."Life is what you make it".. Like my son's doctor always said.."Life ain't fair, get used to it"

Enuff cliches for today.. I'm basically sort of happy now, or try to be..I try to find the joy in every day.

Where's YOUR joy?..So you have problems too???
How do you cope??.. What are you doing to get by??

slowhand208 66M
609 posts
7/9/2006 12:15 pm

Linds,if it is one thing that I have gleaned from you over these months it is that you are no quitter.Since I first met you as Starlight4u I have realized the reason for your blog.We all have our ways of coping and getting by,eluding our problems for a few minutes and looking for what joy we can find.Life isn't fair,but you are a special lady for what you have accomplished.Finally from chatting with you,you have a wonderful sense of humour,a spontaneous wit,and an ability to gather people to you.Honesty is the best policy.

peelingback2u 61M

7/9/2006 2:48 pm

Bugs don't need spray today...walks are always getting up in the morning and reading your really don't want to hear my my joy is the sun on my skin and the wind in my hair.....tomorrow...we will see what that brings

Hope your walk is long and satisfying!

Linds1957 60F

7/9/2006 7:14 pm

AWWWWwww..Thanks Slowhand.. hugs and more hugs..

Grey.. it was a long long road.. twisting.. winding.. seemingly never ending.. but somehow we all made it...and so will you... hugs

peeling...i loved my walk today.. telling the wind my problems..and enjoying the colors along the way..

Linds1957 60F

7/10/2006 7:45 am

aww.. thankyou sensualjoy...hugs

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